Sometimes, it feels like the world is just going by and moving forward and I feel like someone placed me in a virtual wheel and no matter how fast I run and try to catch up, I just keep turning and turning on the same place. It feels like I am just going nowhere when it comes to love.
For the last 1.5 years, I ran after a guy who was never going back to me. I wasted a year and a half more of my life on someone who didn't really love me.
And now, now, I find myself liking someone who again cannot decide if he likes me like that or just enjoys my company. It sucks. It sucks big time. He says he doesn't want to lose me. I told him he won't lose me. What I did not tell him is that he can never lose me because he never had the guts to have me in the first place. You cannot lose what you never had.
So yeah .... I need a tight hug because apparently, I really have lousy taste in men.