Sunday, November 30, 2008

munimuni # 28

This week was very light coz I was able to work from home from Monday to Wednesday and still be effective. I was able to attend the calls I was supposed to attend and deliver the things I was supposed to deliver. It was all good which was really great.

Then of course we had Thanksgiving so no work Thursday and Friday and of course, its weekends off so I've been able to spend a lot of time with B and my family. I've been able to catch up on my dissecting of magazines and will try to catch up with my scrapbooking. It's been a challenge since my mind is consumed with cross stitching. Lol.

All in all, its been a really light week and I look forward to better days coming in. Again, right now, I am at peace with things. By February, I will be financially okay as well which is really really great.

I guess it is true that when you try to do things right, things will turn out right.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

bonding moments with my fave girls

Today, my Mom, lil sister, and I decided to do some girl bonding activities and we had a blast. My Mom was being pernisckety which was really funny coz its so her but she couldn't do much because we were in control. Wanna understand what I am talking about? Look.

Aren't we the most gorgeous family ever? Lol!

happy 26th birthday J!

I wish you ...

1. happiness
2. peace of mind
3. good health for yourself and your love ones
4. love - hopefully you've found the one
5. money money money ... lol
6. true friends who wish for nothing but your happiness and will be there at all times to support you
7. a great career
8. safety all the time
Have a good one! Enjoy!!!

Thursday, November 27, 2008

a feat at Salcedo Market

Arnold, Leslie, and I went to Salcedo Market in Makati a couple of weeks ago. For some reason, we though it would be a great idea to have Arnold take the challenge posted below.

Here is Arnold attempting to take on this feat with Leslie by his side.

Here he is having tea at the end of the feat. Can you make a guess if he was able to successfully finish it or not?

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

afternoon delight

This is how I have been spending my afternoons since I have moved back to my Mom's place. I've just been really catching up with my Mom, lil sis, and B. I haven't done the same with my brothers since they live on their own but its been good. Here are some pics of us.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

learning to trace the alphabet and numbers

Here is my son showing off. He traced the letters of the alphabet and the numbers 1-20 all by himself. He did pretty well too considering that he does not have any proper training and he's only 3 years old.

Here he is tracing the letters of the alphabet. Can you see?

Here is the numbers 1-20 waiting to be traced by him. We use yellow markers to write the numbers for him to trace. If we use other colors, he will not trace it. Lol.

Here he is, showing off. He actually demanded that his picture be taken.

And here is the finished product. Isn't it cool?

And this is how my morning was spent. I love it. I love that I am now able to spend a lot of time with Brent but still do well at work and make time for important people. I love that I was able to sit down on the sofa, listen to my iPod and read a shitty book. Lol.

I love life.

Monday, November 24, 2008

Madagascar: Escape to Africa

I just watched Madagascar earlier today with my litte sister and J. It was such a funny movie. Some people told me that it wasn't but I had a good time watching it. I'm not sure if it was the movie itself or maybe the company I was with but I really had a blast.

It feels so good when people make time for you huh?

Sunday, November 23, 2008

munimuni # 27

This week was a bit challenging at work. One of my twinkle moments just resigned from work and we didn't even get to say goodbye because I was not in the office on his last day. I also had a spat with one of my teammates and I hope that it gets fixed. We may have differences but she is a sweetheart when she's not cuckoo. Lol.

At home, things are more quiet. No gunfire has been sounded from either side so all is well. The B is plumper and we have no problems making him drink 4 vitamins. He even had his haircut again. He looks roundish and healthy. He sleeps at 9pm and wakes up at 6 am then sleeps at 1pm to 4pm. Sheer bliss.

I've also done some scrapbooking and it makes me giddy. Hehe. Our Baguio trip happened way back in January and it is only now that I am able to scrapbook it. Crazy huh?

This is the cover page. I love it. Another one that I really love is this. Its a really simple layout but I love it.

I also had a footspa and this was home service. I love that my foot now looks like the foot of a girl. Lol. More than that, I loved that it was home service. The South simply rocks.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

its good to be home

For some time, I dreaded the idea of going home. Yes, even with B to come home to, I dreaded coming home. Truly, lacking peace of mind is enough to make one not want to go home. Even when no loud fighting was happening, when no hurtful words were hurled, and no plates were being broken ... the mere fact that there was discord in the air was enough to make a house no longer a home.

Now that I am back at my Mom's place, it feels good. Yes, she nags me about where I am going and who I will be with eventhough I am 28 already. Yes, she yaks like there's no tomorrow. Yes, she gets upset at the littlest things. Still, she is home for me.

I feel so at ease in here. I know that I belong. I know that here, I am wanted, loved and accepted. I know that here, I can be me and still be loved.

Friday, November 21, 2008

App Sharing

To all camwhore's out there who love taking pictures and love having their pictures taken, here are two sites that I chanced upon. It rocks!

Bighugelabs and Photofunia. I love it. Seriously. It is so cool.

Isn't it?

Thursday, November 20, 2008

Starbucks Planner 2009

I actually got my planner a week into the promo. I am now on my 4th one with the 2nd and 3rd going to my lil brothers who are not so little anymore.
Here's my sticker card all filled up with 16 stickers. I think this is the least number of stickers they have ever asked of anyone.

This is the box where the planner is placed. Pretty nice huh?

It even has fancy paper wrapping. *giggles*

Yes, I am a caffeine addict and I love the color red. I have a red planner, red bag, red frames for my glasses and red undies. Lol!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

we wanted it all

You and me, we wanted it all, we wanted it all
Passion without pain, sunshine without rainy days
We wanted it always

You and me, we reached for the sky, the limit was high
Never giving in, certain we could win that prize
I should have seen it in your eyes

Look how all our dreams came true
See how I've got me, you see how you've got you
And after all, just one thing died

A little thing called love, something deep inside
You and me, we're not like the rest,
we once were the best
Back when we were dumb,
how did we become so smart
And learn to break each other's heart?

Look how all our dreams came true
See how I've got me, baby, you've got you
Through it all, just one thing died
A little thing called love, something deep inside

You and me, we're not like the rest,
we once were the best
But look what we became, isn't it a cryin' shame

That we almost made it?
But we wanted it all
Baby, you and me
We wanted it all

Mm., mm , mm
I wanted it all before. I really did. I wanted the perfect relationship, the perfect family, the perfect marriage. I realize now that I can't ahve it all. Something would always need to give and most of the time, the sacrifice is worth it.
I used to be scared of fighting. I thought that if a fight happened, that was it. It was the end of the relationship. Now I know that its not true. Sometimes, little arguments need to happen for you to know more about the other person. Sometimes, it is okay to fight instead of keeping everything in.
I still want it all but I know now that I can settle for less as loing as I know that I am getting what I deserve. After all, wanting it all does not necessarily mean that I deserve to have it all.

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

you are worth it

Remember my post about loving in percentages? Well, I had another talk with the same person and it seems I have convinced him that he was wrong and that I was right. Hehe. He told me that he is now letting go of everything and giving in 100% to the emotions that he feels. He has decided to love 100% and leave nothing.

Of course I asked him why he made the choice to change his disposition when he was very adamant about the importance of leaving something behind. He argued that this was the best way to go because it leaves something to the person in case the significant other leaves.

He answered me with this. She is worth it.

Monday, November 17, 2008

iPod frustrations

Either I am a complete imbecile or its just really hard to add things to my iPod. Sigh ... is there an idiots guide to using an iPod?

Sunday, November 16, 2008

munimuni # 26

Last week I was not able to post because I moved out of H's house. Yes, I did. After 4 years, I am now more at peace with myself and life. Yes, I may be worrying about money but that's money. At least, I am happier now and I can focus on the really important stuff: B, my family, and my career.
So for this week, all I did was to settle in and make sure that B felt much much better. Thankfully, he is better now and healthier. Also, I got DSL at home because the EX took out my wifi access. Talk about childish.
I also got a brand new desktop, router, external hard drive, iPod Classic, and headsets for myself and my Mom. Thank God for 0% installments. Lol! I also got my Starbucks planner last last week. It is so cool. I shall post pics soon as J sends them to me.
Things that I am really thankful for this week are the following:
1) B is much better now. He is eating and playing again. My Mom's main objective: Make B fatter and be potty trained.
2) My Mom and siblings have been really supportive of me and my decision to end that relationship. Thank you.
3) J has been really supportive. I haven't been the best person to hang out with or talk to but he has just been there.
4) My team at work. They are the bomb. Thank God for that.
5) Nanny J. She rocks. Nanny M and E too.
So many good things have happened amidst the rumoil. I feel that the bad luck has ended. All good things now. ALL good things.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Alphabet Q's

A. Attached or single? In between ... lol

B. Best friend? Allan, Ronald, Hazel, Jacque, Pua, Vida, Neri, Flare

C. Cake or pie? cake definitely

D. Day of choice? Sunday

E. Essential item? cellphone

F. Favorite color? purple and green

G. Gummy bears or worms? ewwww to both ...
H. Hometown? Cebu, the Queen City of the South

I. Favorite indulgence? shopping and Starbucks coffee

J. January or July? January ... new beginnings

K. Kids? my B

L. Life isn’t complete without? family and friends

M. Marriage date? never mind

N. Number of magazine subscriptions: most likely, it will be aroung 6

O. Oranges or apples? apples ...

P. Phobias? way too many ... roaches, spiders, too many people closing in on me, heights, drowning ... ugh!

Q. Quotes? Keep your friends close, your enemies closer.

R. Reasons to smile? JB

S. Season of choice? fall

T. Tag 5 people. My 5 followers ... lol

U. Unknown fact about me? hmm ... I bake really good brownies.

V. Vegetable? brocolli

W. Worst habit? talking without listening to others

X. X-ray or ultrasound? X-ray

Y. Your favorite foods? chicken and shrimp

Z. Zodiac sign? Scorpio

Thursday, November 13, 2008

95% vs 100%

I was talking to someone the other day about loving. He told me that when I love, I shouldn't give it my all; that I should never love 100%. He told me that he loves someone, but its only 90 - 95% and that he keeps the remaining to himself. This is so that when the person he loves leaves him, there would still be something left for him.

It baffled me.

I don't love like that. When I love, its always 100%. I cannot put a limit to how much I would love someone. I can't see myself going like, "okay, I will love you 57% only and you, 45% only." That's weird for me.

True, when my relationships end, it would really break me but then I am able to recover and come out a better person. I am always able to say that I gave it my all and that I have no regrets. I don't have any what if's in life especially when it comes to my relationships. That is how I prefer it to be.

How do you love? Do you love 100% or only 95%?

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

looking forward

I know that with the new settings I have in my life, things will be much better now. I know that with the changes in my life ... I can say that soon I will have laugh lines and not worry lines. It is all about positivity and all about good vibes.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

beautiful once again

For several years, I have felt that I deserved less because I was no longer beautiful. I felt that I had gotten fat and ugly. I felt that I was a loser.

I am not.

So I wanna say thank you to you ... thank you for making me feel beautiful again, for letting me know that yes, I am beautiful and desirable. Thank you.

Monday, November 10, 2008

moving forward and letting go

From PostSecret. This is how I feel about my failed relationship. This is what I realized. I deserve much better. Much much better.

Over the weekend, I ended an almost 4 year relationship. It hurt. It hurt so much. Have I been able to shed a tear. Here and there. Have I cried my heart out and really really bawled? No. I do not know why. I have a 3 year old son from that relationship who was also sick so I did not have time to mull things over. I cannot breakdown.

Ending this relationship was hard because there were a lot of people involved. Ending it hurt because I have never loved anyone as much as I loved him. But I needed to end it. I had to end it.

Do I regret it? No, simply because I have B now. Do I wish to go back? No. I know now that he gave me the love I thought I deserved then. I realized that it wasn't enough, for anyone. When you are in a relationship, you need to be at your best. Your partner should be able to bring it out of you. If he makes you feel that you are lucky that ha paid you attention, that is not a healthy relationship. If you are not part of his priority list, then that is not a healthy relationship. If he has extra marital affairs and introduces you to the other woman, that is not a healthy relationship. If you are second only to a car or his friends, that is not a healthy relationship. If he hits you occasionally, that is not a healthy relationship. And if he does not know how to exert effort to get you back since he is used to getting everything, that is not a healthy relationship.

I should know. I just got out of one.

Friday, November 7, 2008

Boracay Trip

It was truly relaxing; watching the water and feeling the sand underneath my foot which was really fine helped ease all the stress. I wish you guys were there. I plan to bring my Mom, siblings, and B next year. I hope I am able to.