Monday, November 30, 2009

the celebration

blowing the candle
the cake
with BERKS and TWINS
fooling around with Cha
with his Mom

He had fun. We had fun. Family and friends were there. That's all that matters. =) Happy birthday! =)

Sunday, November 29, 2009

J's 27th Bday Celeb

the gift
forever partners

He looked pretty happy. What do you think?

Happy birthday! =)

Saturday, November 28, 2009

moments with B

Went out to buy some groceries and ended up taking silly pics with B. Lol.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

date with B at MOA

on the way ...
one of the toys
giant Xmas tree ...
at French Baker

I had to go to MOA to get my iPOD and thought of bringing B along with his nanny, sort of like a mini date. It was fun and tiring because B was too energetic and loud for comfort but still, I had fun. Here are some pics.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009


I don’t think I can ever be unfaithful to someone I love. I don’t see myself committing this act to someone I still have feelings for or I have feelings for. It’s just not me. It’s just not in me to do it.
Maybe this is why when this was done to me, it shattered my world and until now, I am left picking up the pieces. The last time someone betrayed me this badly was almost a year ago. The person who did that said that he thinks he has already made up for it, that we were quits.

I disagree.

I still feel hurt when I remember it. I still feel crushed when I remember the events that transpired. I still am shattered by it. No, we are not quits yet. No, we are not even. No, you have not made up for it. Trust is something that is so hard to build again, and less than a year is not enough time to build back something you just broke over something so superficial.

So why do I stay? Why do I let it go on? Simple really … it is because I love. And it is because of this love that eventually, I will be able to completely move on. Not now, not yet, but soon. I just need more time. I need more proof. I need more reassurance.

I hope it will be given. I hope it will be given without hesitation, without drama, without fights. And if not, if you are unable to, then please, the door is wide open - - just close the door gently when you leave and break me for the last time.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

DVD marathon .. obsessions ... and what not ...

Today was a day of mindless entertainment save for the latter part. I went home at around 7 am after a fun fun night hanging out with friends. When I got home, I slept till noon but made sure that I was up by lunchtime to spend it with family. Afterwards, we just basically hanged out at home. I tried to scrapbook but the creative juices needed was just not there and it didn't happen. I think I need my iPOD with me to get it going again.

I watched Dance Flick, The Rebound, and 500 Days of Summer. Dance Flick was so-so, The Rebound was charming, and 500 Days of Summer sorta met my expectations. It was a story about a boy meeting a girl, and not a love story. I love the intro part the most. LOL.

It was also the 1st time that I didnt' do much a text marathon. Hehe. It was kinda refreshing. I guess I am feeling more secure now.

However, I am obsessing about getting the Ericsson SATIO phone, iPOD speakers, and a laptop. I am so so so obsessing over it. Sigh.

So that's how my Sunday went. How did your Sunday go?

Saturday, November 21, 2009

One Word: overflowing

I am overflowing
with love
with blessings
with happiness

I choose to be
in this state
and not that.

I want to overflow
with love
with blessings
with happiness.

I will it to happen
I want it to happen
I want to ...

Friday, November 20, 2009

dinner at Sentro

the table
the pica pica platter

the plate

venti forever
We just had a really good dinner at Sentro yesterday. It was such a nice surprise because I was ready to have a quick, cheap, fast food place. Lol. Imagine my surprise when I was dragged into Sentro. It's a really cozy restaurant in Greenbelt 3. The service was FANTASTIC and the food was great. Just wanted to share it. =)

Monday, November 16, 2009

some awesome things in my life

I have been truly, truly negative the last few weeks and it amazes me since I used to be this bubbly, positive, giddy person. Heck, I haven't even been able to blog anything good lately and that is just not acceptable. So now, I will write about some awesome things in my life to remind me AGAIN of how lucky I am.
  1. supportive family
  2. supportive friends
  3. I still have work. STILL.
  4. I got some interviews (hopefully I passed.)
  5. I have a roof over my head.
  6. I still get to eat food that I want, anytime I want.
  7. I have J.
  8. my brother has an awesome job and my other brother is graduating next
  9. my lil sis is still on the top 3 honor list eventhough she's been studying on her own
  10. my Mom and other family members are in good health
All in all, we are still pretty lucky if I may say so. Right?

Friday, November 13, 2009

wasted and wanting

I have been playing nanny to my son for the past 4 days. I am literally at wits end. He has been clingy at best and a brat at worst. I have tried widening my patience and lengthening it but really ... I get tired too.

Yeah yeah I know some of you are thinking, well, you're a Mom. Yes I am a MOM but I am also human. I am not a robot who can be perky all she wants to be and not tire of it. I had him checked up yesterday and he was pretty fine save for a few coughs and a slight fever.

At the hospital, he was like a monkey who was just wrapped around me. Some of you may think it sweet but try having a 3 feet, 41lbs monkey wrapped around you for an hour and you just may sing a different tune.

I am just so tired from lack of sleep, worrying, and tending to B for almost 4 days straight. Please Lord, heal my son. Not even for me but just for him. PLEASE.

Monday, November 9, 2009

certain of being uncertain

Right now, there is only one thing I am certain of, and that is I am uncertain of how things will be at work. Do I want to be transferred to a new project? Do I want to be retrenched?

I have done all that is expected of me. I have applied internally and have been applying externally. I am thinking of going abroad and working there. I am thinking of living abroad. But I have so many questions in mind. I have so many things that I think about.

Right now, the only thing that I really am certain of, is that I am uncertain.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

the battle of the planners

So I am torn ... I just saw the newest Starbucks Planner for 2010 but I have also fallen in love with the Belle du Jour planner for 2010. The Starbucks planner would cost me around 2,000php since I need to get 17 drinks to get it while the Belle du Jour planner would cost me around 700php. So the dilemma now is since the STarbucks Tradition have started, I have made a point of getting a planner; every single year. If I don't get it now, I will break the tradition. However, I really don't have the means to get one now. Hmmm ... help!

Monday, November 2, 2009

so tired ... so darn tired

The past 4 days I have not been at work ... 1st day I was on SL because I was not feeling well ... the 2nd day I was on leave because it was my bday and the 3rd and 4th, it was my rest day. I should feel well rested. I should feel refreshed right? I don't. The past weekend, when the clock strikes 9pm or so, I am already sleepy. Actually, the entire day I am sleepy even when I've gotten 8 hours or more of sleep. It's like the stress of the past year or so is finally catching up to me and all I wanna do is sleep and sleep and sleep.
It's kind of scary.

I wonder why I am tired all the time. =(

Sunday, November 1, 2009

TGIF with Berks

I had dinner with the Berks last night and it was just one of those easy going nights ... conversation was smooth and of course, pictures were fun. Hehe ... I like moments like these.

Thanks Zell!