UPDATE: Farmtown

I am happy. My farm has expanded immensely; thanks to J who has been tireless in making sure that it is taken cared of when I am at home. It used to be really small and simple, now its big and simple. Lol. I envy the other farms I see who have this really nice design and houses. I am just not that creative. It still is kinda cute, my farm I mean.

anger management

I need to learn how to manage my anger. Today, I woke up to the sound of B screaming his lungs off. To say that it was a rude awakening would be a major understatement.

It was a very bad way to wake up, especially as I had only 4 hours of sleep and was still dead tired. I was very mad; so mad that I literally wanted to hurt B. I wanted to make him cry and cry and cry and be sorry that he made so much noise it woke me up.

It was so wrong. =(

After a few minutes, I stood up knowing that I won't be falling asleep again no matter how much I wanted to. I approached B and did make him cry by shouting at him and spanking him a little bit.

It was really wrong. =(

My Mom spoke to me afterwards to reprimand me. She said that I am not handling the situation right. She told me to not do what I did and to not say the things that I said because B is smart and would remember the hurtful things I said.

I am such a bad Mom. =(

munimuni # 42

The weekend that past was actually very relaxing. Saturday was spent at the clubhouse pool with B and my lil sis. We swam for 2 hours. B is making such a huge progress. From being a scaredy cat to one who jumps on 5 feet water.

Afterwards, we went to ATC (a mall) and had dinner there. It was very relaxing and lots of fun coz we bonded as a family.

Sunday was spent playing scrabble and other games. We also got some potted plants and fixed our small garden.

I love weekends like this. The only person missing was J but soon, it will be complete.

How was your weekend?


Oh, and this is my Care Bear Collection. Pretty cute huh? =)

I love cuddling!

On facebook, there's a fan page for cuddling. I, of course, made sure that I was listed as a fan. There is much to be said about the healing powers of cuddling. It relaxes me so much when I cuddle with someone I love and care for. There's something more to be said about sleeping in the arms of someone you love. When you're wrapped around his arms, and you fall asleep while staring at his face ... it truly is one of the most wonderful feeling in the world.

Some people I know do not like cuddling, hugging, or even being touched. I feel sad for them; to not have this kind of connection or intimacy is just sad IMO. I'm glad I like being hugged, touched, and cuddled by people that I love. It really is very soothing and reassuring.

munimuni # 41

The week passed by in a blur. The weekend, at least, was full of precious moments. I was able to spend time with J's friends and got to know them a wee bit better. I was able to spend time with someone I love and just bask in the love. I was able to spend time with my family as well. We went swimming at the clubhouse and though the clubhouse pool was simple and could use a little bit renovating, it was pretty nice actually. The water was clean and generally, the entire area was clean. I might even start swimming there everyday to lose some much needed fat.

B had a good time. At first, he was dead scared to wade in but after an hour or so, he was jumping into the adult pool. Good thing Nanny A was there to catch him.

All in all, the weekend was a bit relaxing though a tad bit short. Lol.

H1N1 scare

The school where my brothers go have been infected with this flu. 7 of their schoolmates are already afflicted. This worries me, not just for them but for my family. We are not well off. We cannot afford to get sick, or be hospitalized. I really hope it won't affect us.

I hope that those who are affected get better too.

Sigh.

Ako Mismo! (I Myself ....)

There is an org here in the Philippines that asks people to commit to what POSITIVE thing they will commit to doing for themselves and their country. It's called AKO MISMO which translates roughly to I MYSELF WILL ... . I think its a really good thing. I just hope that people will actually do what they committed to doing.

I made the commitment to be as positive as I can be and to remember the good things about my country and my life amidst all the trouble and hardships. I think I'm doing pretty well on that commitment of mine.

What about you? What do you commit to yourself and to the people who matter to you?

sleepyhead or dead tired?

Yep, this is how I feel after every shift. It's so weird ... yes, I do have some added task and I guess my team is not with me to relieve me of my stress but J is here ... still, after every shift, soon as I get home, this is how I feel. I probably look the same too.

I've been sleeping almost 7-9 hours a day which is so not me. I do feel refreshed when I wake up but I am a bit baffled why I am able to sleep such a long time when before, after 6 hours, I'd be awake. Heck, with 3 hours, I'd be okay. Is it the stress? Is is the rainy weather, rather, stormy weather?

I just noticed it since this is about the 2nd week that this has happened. I kinda like it. I think.

sense of being complete

I've heard people say that when you have someone who knows your worth and loves you for who and what you are, you feel complete. The world just seems a tad bit better and you have a perpetual smile on your face. They say that you can face problems with a little more step and not take it too deeply.

I thought those were just words made up by romantic idiots or fools in love. I thought that it wasn't true and that it was all an exaggeration. Apparently, I was wrong.

It is true. Things seem more tolerable when there are people who support you 100%. So there ... I just feel happy.

munimuni # 40

The weekend was restful for me. I was able to do some groceries and I was able to sleep for more than 10 hours both Saturday and Sunday night. Wheee! That is so rare for me.

We also celebrated the 21st bday of my twin brothers. No pictures yet since the damn cord is broken. Huhuhu. Kirk cooked and Karl fixed the pc. I guess that tells you what their specialties are. The house is now 3/4 done with all the unpacking and sorting. There are still some minor things to fix but overall, its okay.

My Mom is a little bit stressed (prayers for peace of mind for her would be much appreciated) and is a bit worried too. The owner of the house we used to rent is a PSYCHO. Her house was robbed by some people and she blames my mom. She claims that my mom had something to do with it. THAT BITCH! How dare she say that about my mom? FUCKER!!!

Sigh. Sorry for losing my temper there but really, it makes the blood boil. We had nothing to do with it and it is not our fault that they were stupid enough to leave the aircon slots open and that they placed valuable stuff without someone guarding it. Hello? This is Manila. They should have known better.

Gggrrrr .....

Anyway, overall the week was pretty good save for that sore spot. My brothers are now 21 and in good health. My entire family is in good health which I am really grateful for. J and I are doing really well too and its been cool. My friends have been reaching out to me so that's another good thing. =)

Overall, I know that we are still blessed.