Sunday, August 31, 2008

Eraserheads Concert

Though they were only able to sing 15 songs out of the 30 they were supposed to, it was worth standing in rocky road and sweating like hell to watch them perform live once more. I was with a friend too so it rocked!

Vids, tayo na sa alapaap!

Friday, August 29, 2008

Thursday, August 28, 2008

murphy's law

Yesterday, I thought it was bad. Today? Today was worse. I hope tomorrow it won't be the worst one yet. That caricature? That's me ... everything went to Hades and I couldn't stop it no matter how hard I tried. Darn!

Broken mirror, black cat, walking under a ladder, opening the freakin' umbrella indoors ... only thing lacking is if a piece of the earth actually fell on me.

Monday, August 25, 2008

do you wonder?

I have attempted to kill myself twice in my 27 years of being alive. Once, when I was 18 and the other when I was 23. Both times it was because of family issues. Obviously, I failed since I am still alive now. At times, I am very grateful that I have failed but I will be a liar to say that thoughts of it no longer cross my mind. They do, especially when things are not going so well or when I 'm really really hurting.

Does it make me a coward? Yes, I am one. Does it make me weak, yes, it does. I do try not to entertain it so much since I have a wonderful lil angel who needs me in his life (or that's what I want to believe.) At times, though, it just seems the easy way out; and the pain is just too much to bear.

I just try to get by; sometimes with friends or at times, by myself. One step at a time, one tear at a time. I know that this too shall pass.

Friday, August 22, 2008

screamfest galore

I love watching scary movies. I don't know why but I do. The clincher though is this, I am such a scaredy cat. Like I'm really a big wuss but I still watch scary films. I am watching Shutter right now and it has been a blast. Screams left and right. Lol.

Do you like scary movies?

Thursday, August 21, 2008

stalker songs

If a guy dedicates the following to you, RUN! HIDE! My friends and I were discussing songs and we heard No Air playing in the background. I made a comment that if someone dedicated that song to me, I'd be scared since it was a bit too much. And they said that yeah, its definitely a stalker song. So I thought I'd share it with you guys. Lol!

Wherever You Will Go by the Calling

Every Breath You Take by The Police

No Air by Jordin Sparks

Anything else?

Wednesday, August 20, 2008


I think I am becoming one. I am now obsessing over how many RAM's my laptop has, mulling things over getting a 160GB ipod, a D40 DSLR or D80 DSLR, and if I should get myself my own personal laptop or not. Add to that my wanting to get a realy kickass Sony Ericson phone and that just about seals the deal eh?

My house and my Mom's house which is right across mine has WiFi for crying out loud so that even in the bathroom I can be online. Talk about crazy huh?

When did this happen? I used to find it so amazing that I was able to send email's? Is this part of my evolving? Hahahahaha! I do not know. What I do know is that I want these gadgets and I am already plotting ways on how to get it. Lol!

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

would you blame me?

I was talking to a doctor earlier and he asked me this question. Would I blame him if he operated on a family member of mine and two days later, that family of mine died due to the operation? Would I blame him?

Yes I would. I would blame him simply because I need to blame someone, in the same way that we all feel the need to believe that there is a God who controls our life and makes decisions for us. God's will and all that. Do I really believe that he is to blame? No. But I need to put my anger towards someone and channel whatever wrath I have in me so that I can slowly let go.

He thanked me for lettiing him see it from a patient's POV. I do wonder though if most people will agree with me.

Monday, August 18, 2008


Image from PostSecret

I think I'm doing a really good job at it too.

Akala mo hindi ko kaya
Ang iwanan at limutin ka
Akala mo, akala ko
Akala nating dalawa
Tayong dalawa.
Eto ka n naman
Walang alam, walang pakialam
Di mo ba nakikita
Sa 'king mga mata
Hindi ako nasasaktan
Hindi kita kinakailangan
Hindi ako nagdaramdam
Pag- ibig mo'y limot ko na
Hindi kita inaalala
Hindi na 'ko aasa pa

Ang labo mo naman kausap
Di mo pa ba nakukuha
Hoy, naririnig mo ba ako
Pakiusap, pakiusap naman
Wag ka nang magtanong
Pakinggan mo na lang itong binubulong
Ng puso ko sa puso mo
At hindi itong sinasabi ko woahhh...
Hindi ako nasasaktan
Hindi kita kinakailangan
Hindi ako nagdaramdam
Pag- ibig mo'y limot ko na
Hindi kita inaalala
Hindi na 'ko aasa pa

Mangyari 'yan
Hinding hindi, hindi mo ba alam
Tanging ikaw lang sa puso ko
Sa isip at gunita ko

Hindi ako nasasaktan
Hindi kita kinakailangan
Hindi ako nagdaramdam
Pag- ibig mo'y limot ko na
Hindi kita inaalala
Hindi na 'ko aasa pa
Sa bawat araw at gabi
Hinding hindi kita naiisip
Kahit man lang isang saglit
Pilitin mang limutin ka
Ngunit Hinding hindi magawa
Paano nga ba magawa




Sunday, August 17, 2008

shopping for labels, shopping for love

I just went shopping today and blew off an obscene amount of money. I'll probably regret it a few days later when my card bill comes and I need to pay but right now, I feel damn good about it. I got clothes, undies, shoes and lots of dresses. I feel like I deserve it with everything going on in my life. I mean, fine, I have a lot of problems but I don't need to look the part right? I also took out the B and got him 10 VCD's to make up for my shopping. Lol!

Anyone else suffer from retail theraphy out there?

Sunday, August 10, 2008

B, the rockstar

I realized I haven't posted any new pictures of B for some time now. He has stopped being a toddler and is now a fullblown rockstar. See for yourself. Lol!

Happy Sunday everyone! Hope you are as blessed as I am. B is all the blessing that I need. =)

Saturday, August 9, 2008

on a random Saturday afternoon ...

I sit here right now, watching some MTV's on TV while my son is coloring his supposedly magical board. You know, the one where you swipe it and every doodle you've made disappears. Yep, that one. And yes, I said coloring. So much for that. Here's a picture. Lol. MommyLou is not gonna be a happy grandma since she was the one who got him that thing.

Anyway, I was thinking that I had nothing to do today. Like completely nothing and then I realized that I actually do but I just don't have either of the following:

1. cash - I wanted to go shopping.
2. fake dvd- want to watch Mama Mia
3. energy - need to finish my scrapbooks
4. energy again - should upload all pictures in multiply and what have you
5. more energy - want to record a demo cd to join this talent night that my company has

Hmmm ...what to do what to do?

Friday, August 8, 2008

Review: Flapjack

This is where we had dinner. It's beside Italianni's in Greenbelt 2.

This is what I had. Its Chicken and it was yummy. It wasn't that fattening as well so its all good.

House salad with grilled chicken ... I can't believe it tasted good.

my free breakfast from Eric, the manager ... yummy waffles!

I totally recommend this place. It's open at 7am and you can call at this number for delivery.

Manager: Eric Deang

Greenbelt 2, Ayala Center, Makati
Tel: (632) 729-9121
Open: 7AM - 12AM

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

trainwreck on the loose

This is me right now.

Siam Niramit

Can't wait to watch this show. I read about it and it seems like on eof the greatest shows on earth. I'm so lucky to have this to look forward to during my trip. Whee! Siam Niramit.

Fast Facts:

Siam Niramit is a world-class performance of Thailand's arts and cultural heritage. Set in the heart of Bangkok affording convenient access by MRT subway and major thoroughfares, this must-see spectacular is performed on the gigantic stage now listed in the Guinness World Records, featuring over 150 performers with as many as 500 costumes. On top of this, enhanced special effects with the world's most advanced technology are used to produce a stimulating, very realistic and inspiring experience. This is a Journey to the Enchanted Kingdom of Thailand that no one can miss.

Sunday, August 3, 2008


I wish someone could show this to R. I wish someone can tell him that to make me stay and work things out, all he needs to do is to love me, appreciate me, and make me feel like I matter. REALLY MATTER.

I don't need lip service. I don't need flowers though occasionally it would be really nice. I just need to feel that I am needed and wanted; not because he is used to having me around but because he wants me around, he craves to have me around. Because I matter.

Really. That's all I need. Is it so hard to give?

Friday, August 1, 2008

Vigan, Ilocos Sur

picture taken by Kerwin

This is one of those places that I want to see before I die. As morbid as it may sound but I would really love to go here even for a day trip. I don't know why but this place calls out to me if that is even true. It's so haunting and seems full of stories to tell. I just have this intense feeling whenever I see pictures of it just like the one above. I know that I need to go there, to be in this place.

Has that ever happened to you?