Monday, March 29, 2010

the new place ...

bathroom I will share with my lil sister
on to the 2nd floor

view from the door
the living room and the dining room
the family room upstairs
dresser in the masters room
my dresser and cabinet
the dirty kitchen
where the orchids will hang
the front of the house

Isn't it nice? We're moving in 2-3 weeks I think.

munimuni # 45

This weekend was more calm and filled with moments that I truly cherish. I've heard some good news which I hope were real and would come true and I am just really praying it will. I've also been able to spend time again with the family.

The twins made history with their DBT by entering the finals in all category with their Manila Ocean Park leg yesterday so congrats team! We also wrapped up the weekend by celebrating K's 10th birthday with a buffet at Yakimix. My Dad got her some fancy fan and a pink bag which cost him Php900. LOL.

It feels good to know that family will always be there no matter what.

on our way to MOA

picking out the fancy fan

the buffet table

@ Starbucks afterwards

Saturday, March 27, 2010

earth hour 2010 and cooking shrimp

We participated in Earth Hour 2010. We turned off our lights from 830pm to 940pm earlier tonight. Here's a picture of the dark.

This is the Cream of Chicken that I made where I added some egg to make it tastier. It seemed to have been a success coz it's gone now. =)

And this? I cooked the huge shrimps we had. I was so worried that it wasn't properly cooked but thank God, it was. Yey me!

And here is my Lola who was pretty worthless the whole time I was cooking. Hahahaha.

moments, coffee experience, and a workout

This coffee was given to me by a colleague at work. He said that it was really strong but I sort of didn't believe him at first. I got it yesterday but only remembered to have it today.

There was no real smell to it which was a disappointment. After all, it is the smell of coffee where you first experience what it is really like. However, the taste more than made up for it. It was different but in a good way. The coffee was really strong but it was tolerable for non coffee drinkers. It had a certain kick to it, enough to wake up anyone who is in danger of falling asleep at the wrong place and at the wrong time.

Would I drink it again. SURE. Unfortunately, I have no idea where to get it. LOL.

After 6 years, I finally got off my lazy ass and worked out again. I danced, did some cardio, boxing, and danced some more. I also started doing crunches. I used to do 2000 a day but started with 20 today. I didn't want to overstretch my poor sleeping muscles. It felt so good I tell you. So damn good.

My recent health issues spurred me to do this but the high I got from doing it is keeping me going ... I am so working out again. Woot woot!

This morning, this is what greeted me. My lil sister and B playing with bubbles. It's a sight that always makes me smile.

And here is B with the ball that his Tito Allan bought him yesterday. He looks mighty pleased.

And this? This is what is near my bed. My iPod with their own speakers and my planner where I jot down my daily thoughts that are too private for my blog. I put my heartaches and crazy thoughts in this red planner which can never be read by anyone else.

How was your Saturday?

Friday, March 26, 2010

Thursday, March 25, 2010

happy 10th birthday Kianna!

blowing the candle
our Dad clapping hehe

the cake
the celebrator
cute no?
Simple celebration but the mere fact my Dad dropped by makes the birthday really special. =)

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

big girls don't cry

me at 13

The last two weeks have been such an eye opener for me. Realizing that I have temporarily lost my constant companion, the one person I can text anytime I want, call on whenever I want, and be with when time allows ... I have felt lost.

I was miserable, sad, angry, despondent, and in fear. Yes, I was in fear. I wasn't used to not having a guy by my side. I realized that I have been relying on men for the last 12 years of my life to be happy or feel happy. It's such a shame to know that.

Still ... as they say, when you realize what it is you are doing wrong ... you are already halfway to recovery. The past few days has still been a bit of a struggle from time to time. Keyword: time to time. It's not a 24/7 thing anymore. I used to bombard J with text messages and wall postings day and night. Can you say stalker? It was crazy and pathetic.

Now, I realized that I needed this time and space between us just as much as he needed a break from me. He did what I could not do and painful as it was in the beginning, I realized that we did need a temporary break from each other. He needed to heal and rest, and I needed to fix myself; just like what he said.

So thanks J. It hurt a lot at first but I think that in time, when we get back together, things will be much better because I have already forgiven myself and learned to love myself. Most importantly, I am learning to rely on me and me alone. I'll be a whole person; not half a woman.

Till then ... I won't cry anymore. It's time for me to grow up ... really grow up; be a big girl and big girls don't cry.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

a day at the hospital

my only companion
so many tests ....

my blood was clotting ... had a hard time extracting =(
the 2D Echo machine

someone taking the stress test

me in the hospital gown

I feel a little bit proud of myself. I was at Makati Medical for half a day undergoing tests to gauge my blood and heart problems and I had no one with me. I wasn't even texting with anyone. It was just me, myself, and I.
I consider that a major victory since I've always relied on a boyfriend, family, or friends when it comes to moments like that. Today, it was just me and I survived.

I was there by 8am and they had to extract some blood. My blood was clotting and so it took a long time to extract. Pretty weird coz it was the first time it did that. After, I went to the pulmo doctor which was just a really long wait. Afterwards, it was off to the 2D Echo. I was so sleepy the whole time. I don't even know why I was since I had a good, long sleep. When it was time for the 2D Echo, I was unnerved by the machine. It also hurt since they had to press coz apparently, my heart was not easy to spot. I had this absurd notion that the doctor would tell me I have no heart. LOL.

When it was time for the stress test, that's when things went a bit bad. It was supposed to last 21 minutes but at 9minutes 17 seconds, I couldn't do it anymore. I almost collapsed. I heard the doctor say something a poor condition and I hope he was not referring to my poor heart. My BP was 150/80 highest and lowest at 130/90. My heart rate was 164. I have no idea if that's good or bad. Oh well ... I'll know everything on Monday so wish me luck.

Monday, March 22, 2010

munimuni # 44

The family has been spending weekends together and I'm thankful for that ... it keeps me distracted and happy ... I'm glad that we patched things up and sorted things ... its a work in progress but at least we're working on things together; that's what matters most.

31 years ....
shopping for kitchy items

showing off her new diary

dinner at Luk Yuen Cash and Carry
eh??? LOL
ice cream happiness
waiting for the food

crab cooked by Kirk

Daddy's girl