I have been able to coast along being a single Mom for the last 8 years or so. I have managed to always find a good answer, a sensible one, or produce something out of nothing when needed to compensate for the fact that there is no Daddy in the picture.

This time around, I could not coast. I rammed straight into the wall and had no answer for my son's questions about circumcision and what happens before, during, and after. I had absolutely no idea what to say, how to deal, and what to do with it. I mean, how would I know? I'm a girl.

Due to this, I cursed B's Dad in my head. He was the one who did not want to have B circumcised when B was just a baby because he said it would make for a great bonding between him and our son. Now, he's nowhere to be seen and I am left to fend on my own with the situation. Thankfully, D came to the rescue.

I really am grateful for D. He talked B through it and even went all the way to our place to be with B during the process. He alleviated B's fears and it was just a really awesome gesture. Kindness in it's purest form. I mean, he didn't have to do it but he willingly volunteered and for a single Mom who felt helpless about things, this was just such a welcome respite.


I was a wreck. D kept telling me to relax but I just couldn't. I guess it's innate in a Mom to be nervous when you know that there will be pain involved for your child and there is nothing you can do about it. Thankfully, he was there to just help B get over things and understand what was happening. I mean, I couldn't even look at B's wound. It was too much and I felt like passing out.

I know. I am worthless.

This is why I am extremely grateful to D as well as my family coz they are there when I can't handle things. It really is true when people say it takes a village to raise a child. I wouldn't be able to handle things on my own and I am just thankful that God sends angels my way.

I have been able to coast along being a single Mom for the last 8 years or so. I have managed to always find a good answer, a sensible ...

4 years ago today, I was on my knees begging someone to not leave me. I pleaded, cajoled, and yes begged. I seeked his forgiveness and aske...

I have never been curious about Baler. I've often heard this is where people go to find themselves amidst the waves crashing on the shore, the strong hits slowly soothing away the pain that they feel and easing calm into their hearts once it all subsides. 



I've never been curious about you. Frankly when we met, you made an impression but it was fleeting. It was only later on when we got the chance to talk that I became mildly curious. Now I question if that curiousity is what will kill this Kat. See what I did there? Perhaps not. After all, ignoring me has been part of your game all along. 

Frankly, I had too many pains to just be soothed by a mere wave. How can a wave soothe the pains left by others? How can the calming sounds of the ocean make me feel better when nothing else has? 

How can you make me smile then leave me feeling empty? How can you make me laugh out loud then have me shedding tears because of an insensitive remark? How can you heal my pains with a hug then add to it when you forget my existence? 



Baler was my home for 2 days. For two days, it pulled me in just like the waves and wouldn't let me go as much as I struggled to break free. It held me in it's arms laughing at my protest and hooking me in until I can resist no more. 

For two days, it pushed me away and made me feel that I was nothing but trash that it did not want or need. When I ran after it, it would hold out its arm and then pull away just when I thought I could hold on to it. It laughed at my attempts and mocked me for even trying. 

Baler welcomed me with open arms with its pretty beaches and magnificent waterfalls. It also spat me out with a vengeance with its slippery slope and strong currents. To this moment, I do not know if Baler hates me or loves me. 



Just like you ... you brought me to Baler and I know not if you like me or I am just a toy you play with to amuse you. It is exasperating but what is more frustrating is that I still find myself drawn to you. I can't seem to leave and my feet keep digging in the sand that is you. When I struggle to pull away, the sand becomes quicksand and I am sucked in. 



You are like Baler. You and I seem to not fit but I find myself adjusting in the hopes that one day you'd turn around and say, "hey, welcome home." For now, you are Baler. I am but a mere visitor just hoping to survive this trip as unscathed as I possibly can be but knowing that I will have more than a few marks. 

I have never been curious about Baler. I've often heard this is where people go to find themselves amidst the waves crashing on the shor...

All of you know that I have always been a fan of Starbucks. Everyone who has spent at least a week's worth of time with me would know that I breathe Starbucks coffee so this may come as a surprise to all that lately, I have been drinking gallons of Bo's Coffee. To be exact, I have been drinking the Cold Brew Coffee with Peppermint of Bo's Coffee and this all started last March when Bo's Coffee flew me to Cebu along with D.

It was actually D who introduced the drink to me on our 1st night there. I think I drank around 4 cup of this and on the 4th cup, he had the fantastic idea of putting in peppermint. It was definitely a win.


We learned a lot about how Bo's grew as a local coffee shop to now having 92 stores and they are not about to stop. They plan to expand until they reach their 100th store. I'm actually excited for them and as much as I love Starbucks, I'm equally excited about this local homegrown brew.

After all, they really reach out to the local farming community and support them. The CEO even makes sure that there will be real profit for the farmers they work with because he would like to ensure that everything is sustainable. This deserve a thumbs up sign for me.

Lately, I have found myself enjoying the perks of staying at Bo's Coffee. Free WiFi and socket plus the fact that it is almost always never full is definitely a huge factor. It seems D has an effect on me and my taste in coffee. I'd still buy coffee from Starbucks but now, Bo's Coffee is definitely another option which I think is a good thing. After all, there is always room for more than one kind of coffee in my heart.

All of you know that I have always been a fan of Starbucks. Everyone who has spent at least a week's worth of time with me would know th...

Do you even really know him?

This is something that friends would always ask me when I mention you.

You barely know him.
It's too early.
It's too soon.
You're just going to get hurt again.
He doesn't even know you exist.

They might be right. Or they may be wrong. Who's to say what is right and wrong when emotions are involved? Who can really tell someone that it is wrong to want someone to be happy? Who can say "don't love this person because he will just hurt you."

If it was so easy to follow, shouldn't there be less hearts broken and more relationships intact?

You may not be someone worthy of loving.
You may not be someone worthy of affection.
You may not be someone worthy of anything.

However, this heart has decided that you are worthy of all these and more. This heart has decided that I need to get to know you ... to see all the imperfections and accept it for all these flaws are part of who you are. This heart has decided that it will love you for all that you are, regardless if you notice me or love me back for this heart just loves.

It just loves and even when it doesn't get loved back, it chooses to love until there is nothing left of it. It has always been like that. It loves and loves until there is nothing and then it slowly rebuilds. It cannot love any other way. This is the only way it knows how.

I see your flaws but I also see your potentials. I see the good that you try to hide under the facade of not wanting to care or love. I see the beauty that is in your heart that has been broken so many times by people you loved who did not love you back. I see the longing in your heart to have someone tell you they won't leave because there has been way too many goodbyes and too little "I'm here to stay."

I see all these and more.
I see you.

I don't just see the arrogant jerk who pretends to not care.
I don't just see the confused child who can't understand why he's alone.
I don't just see the hurt young man who just wanted to love.

I see you.
I see all of you.
I see your flaws and potentials.
I see the good and the bad.
I see the ugly and the worst side of you.
I see you.

So if you will let me ... I would like to love you even when you are not worthy of being loved because that is just your opinion of yourself. I would like to love you even when you are not worthy of being loved so that I can show you how worthy you are of being loved if you will just let me.

Do you even really know him? This is something that friends would always ask me when I mention you. You barely know him. It's too e...

Read about Day 1 here. Day 2 in Malaysia started out pretty early since this was crunch time and where our actual work was supposed to ha...

arrived in Malaysia

THE VIEW

We also managed to grab a late lunch and we used the 100RM voucher given to us. We were in awe because the food here is cheap but really good. We ordered 2 kinds of noodles, 12 stick chicken satay, and french fries. The chicken satay and french fries were the winners of this meal. They were just really good.

Maggie of Manila Bulletin and Yanna of Preview

Today was an awesome day. They said that if you need something, ask the Universe and if you want it bad enough, the Universe gives it to yo...

Let me introduce you to SIPA. Yes, sipa is the name of this delicious deep friend thing. It contains something juicy and flavorful inside. It's quite interesting really coz after having eaten at least 5 pieces of this, I still couldn't figure out what was inside the wrapper. It's definitely some sort of meat. One thing I know is that it tasted good.

SIPA also happens to be a favorite of D. He told me about this before and finally, after a couple of months, he was able to had me try this. I fell in love with every bite that we took and the smile on my face definitely showed that I appreciated his efforts in bringing me to this place. Add the fact that we have been having one misunderstanding after another since Cebu so this was a welcome respite from all the arguments.

Last night, we finally signed up our site and we chose to have the 10 years ownership of the site. I told him that this is a commitment that we would need to really keep. I told him that should we fight, we can't let our prides get the better of us; that we needed to put the other first.

He scoffed much to my chagrin but then he proceeded to explain. Apparently, he wasn't worried at all about our possible fights because in his head, we do put the other ahead of everything  and he knew in his head that yes, we would fight, we would frustrate each other, and we would make each other mad but at the end of the day, we would say sorry and we'll always have sipa.

I love what he said. It was very reassuring. Now, should we fight, I will just have to hold on to what he said tonight and that is no matter what, we will always have SIPA.

Let me introduce you to SIPA. Yes, sipa is the name of this delicious deep friend thing. It contains something juicy and flavorful inside...

We've always seen images of stars and celebrities aboard a cruise ship toting their gorgeous sunnies and admit it or not, you've found yourself fantasizing about doing the same thing. After all, who doesn't want to go on a cruise while wearing really nice sunglasses?

Buy a pair of stylish designer sunglasses from Eye Society and you might just end up wearing them on a free trip aboard the luxury cruise liner Star Cruises Virgo. Eye Society, the premier eyewear boutique is known for its wide collection of international designer eyewear brands and the world's best lenses is rewarding customers with a single receipt purchase worth Php10,000 or more this summer with a chance to win the Eye Society

Travel in Styleraffle promo. You get the chance to win a 6 days 5 nights cruise for 2 aboard the Star Cruise Virgo.



What's more is that you can enjoy the following summer deals that will surely let you travel in style because Eye Society is extending a special 20% discount on graded sunglasses to let you experience the comfort and convenience of wearing prescription on your favorite sunglasses. There is no need to wear contact lenses now.


If you happen to buy a RAy-Ban, you also become eligible to win a trip to London on top of the Travel in Style lunch and raffle promo. Last, you may also double your chance of winning if you use your BDO credit card during the BDO VIP Shopping days on April 21 to 23, 2017.




The promo period for Eye Society's Travel in Style Raffle runs from March 15 to May 31, 2017. Raffle draw will be on June 20, 2017 and announcement of winners will be on June 21, 2017. Travel cruise dates run from June 22 to December 31, 2017. Terms and conditions apply. Per DTI permit number 3347 series of 2017.

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Sa wakas
Dumating na rin ako dito
Malayo sa kaguluhan at ingay ng mundo
Isang lugar na ang langit ay dagat at ang dagat ay langit

Sa pagtingala ako’y nilamon ng ulap
Na tila ba ang buhay ay walang bahid ng hirap
Pinakalma ang kumakabog na damdamin
Ng mga ibong humuhuni ng harana sa akin

Napapanatag sa mga along humahampas
Sa dalampasigang umaawas
At napapangiti sa halik ng hanging walang habas

Nananaghinip ba ako?
Paano ba ako umabot dito?

Magsimula tayo sa wakas
Sa mga naiwang bakas
Kung kailan ko tinalikuran ang entablado
Binitawan ang mikropono
Iniwasan ang mga naglalakihang ilaw
Na tila ba ako’y nasilaw
Hinayaan ang humahangos na damdamin ang magdikta
Kung sa’n ako pupunta
Hanggang sa madapa na

Pero hindi lahat ng nadadapa ay nananatili sa ibaba
Kumapit ka lang at maniwala
Hawakan ang lubid, tibayan ang bisig
Dahan-dahan kang umahon
Alalahanin na hindi ka mauubusan ng rason
Para tumayong muli
At mahanap ang mga nawalang ngiti

Dahil muling kakatok ang tadhana
Ang mga bituin ay muling magpapakita

Kaya ko pa ba?
Isusugal ko ba?

Maaalala na minsan ka nang nakinig
Sa mga himig ng pag-ibig
Kasabay din ng pag-alala
Na minsan ka na rin nitong niyanig

Pero susugal ako
Susugal ako pero

Lalapit sa distansyang sapat lang
Sa distansyang sakto lang
Para maabot ko siya
Maramdaman ka niya
Magtanong ng mga bagay mula sa pinakamalalim
Hanggang sa walang kwenta

Distansyang sapat lang

Na tulad sa pagitan ng isang pintor at ng puting tela
Tititgan, pag-iisipan bago simulan ang obra

Magsisimulang gumuhit, buburahin ang pangit
Makikipagbatuhan ng mga salitang tutugma
Sa saya at pait

Magbabakasakaling muling tumibok
Ang damdaming matagal nang tumiklop

Mula sa distansyang sapat lang

Para agad kong makita kung may dahilan
Para ipagpatuloy pa
Dahil kung wala
Ay pupunitin ko na

Pero iba ka

Hindi ko mapigilang mas lumapit pa
Na para bang ang sapat ay kulang na
Lalapit ako
At lalapit pa ako
Hanggang sa maabot mo ang pagkatao ko
Hanggang maniwala ulit
At managhinip
Hanggang mapalawak ang mundong sumikip
Hanggang sa matagpuan ang akalang hindi na mahahanap
Dahil matagal na pala tong nakasulat sa ulap
Matagal nang hinuhuni ng ibon
Matagal nang tinuturo ng alon
Na sa isang sulok ng mundong bukod pa dito
May naghihintay
Na katumbas mo

Magsimula tayo sa wakas
Sa wakas, magsisimula na tayo

Sa wakas Dumating na rin ako dito Malayo sa kaguluhan at ingay ng mundo Isang lugar na ang langit ay dagat at ang dagat ay langit S...

One of the most frustrating things to experience under the blistering heat of the summer rays is looking like something the cat dragged in. Even when you have your make up on, it can get really ugly when the sun decides to hit you with it's harmful rays.

In this season of beaches, sunnies, and swimsuits, how can you manage to stay beautiful and fresh with the summer in a tropical country like ours? Worry not because Maybelline New York, the No. 1 make up brand in the world actually came up with new products to address your dilemma. This Summer 2017, cop that fresh matte summer look with Maybelline's Super BB Fresh Matte Cushion + Master Strobing Stick for a fun-filled season you'll never forget.

Ready for my #ShellPH adventure with @welovemaybelline #FreshMatteSummerLook ... I may lack sleep but I won't look it. The #strobing stick really makes a huge difference. #maybellineph

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The Maybelline Super BB Fresh Matte Cushion gives you a matte poreless perfection with just a tap. This is the first ever BB matte cushion that offers mattifying high coverage while still giving off that fresh and lightweight hydrating feeling to your skin which makes it even more suitable for our hot and humid season. Bonus part is that it has SPF 25 PA+.


The Maybelline Master Strobing Stick is the first illuminating and highlighting stick that adds targeted dimension to the face for the ultimate strobe effect. The ceamy formula with micro-fine perals combine to boost skin glow. Apply this to the target planes of your face and see how easy it is to achieve a perfect glow from within look which makes it an absolute summer look.



These are the 2 looks you can achieve with the Maybelline Super BB Fresh Matte Cushion and the Maybelline Master Strobing Stick. You can go from day to night by adjusting your eyeshadow and lipstick. The rest will be taken cared of by Maybelline.

Grab these perfect makeup combo - the Super Fresh BB Matte Cushion available in Light and Natural for only Php749 and the Master Strobing Stick available in Nude and Pink for only Php399. Available in select Maybelline counters nationwide and in Maybelline's Page in Lazada.

One of the most frustrating things to experience under the blistering heat of the summer rays is looking like something the cat dragged in. ...