2009 .... what a year it was!

2009 started out pretty badly for me ... I had to deal with a psycho ex who was out to bleed me out emotionally, psychologically, and financially. He and his family harassed my family and even went as far as throwing a stone at our house. Yes, it was that bad.

Then another sad thing happened ... a tragedy we thought of at that time. We were being asked to move out of the house we were renting because the owner needed it all of a sudden. Just when we were starting to do well with our little store, we had to start all over again.

We thought this was a tragedy but it was actually a blessing in disguise. We were finally away from my ex who used to live right across the street from us. We were finally free from their hateful stares and curses.

From that point on, there were a lot of good things that have happened. There were still some down moments and crazy moments that made me want to curse at the world but overall, it was a year full of bonding moments with family, friends, and my love.

I am still not where I want to be but I am slowly getting there. I am becoming a better person and I am able to pinpoint my flaws and come up with action plans to make an improvement.

2009 was a turbulent year for me. I hope that 2010 will be more peaceful.

last hurrah for 2009

This was yesterday and today ... last outing and date for the year ... it was fun. =p Goodbye 2009! Hello 2010! Happy New Year everyone!

starbucks moment

favorite thing to do at Starbucks ... write and listen to my iPOD

group shot of course

Nanny A enjoying her drink and food

the food and drinks

B in the garden

catching up with RJ

we ate at World of Chicken ... so worth it!
she's a TRUE friend ... one of my treasures

Nanny A and B in front of the Mall of Asia landmark

group shot as always hehe

I was able to meet up with an old friend who lives on the other side of town. I'm so happy we were able to touchbase and talk about stuff again. Nice being with people who truly care about you. Love you girl!

Merry Christmas!

From all of us here ... Merry Christmas everyone! Hope you had a blessed one! =)

realization and the light bulb moment

A few days ago, I learned that my ex was now living in a province with another woman. Yep. He was able to dupe another one. I feel bad for the woman because I know first hand how horrible the ex can be but aside from that, I realized that I have really moved on. I didn't even feel a surge of hatred for him anymore. True, I still would be pretty happy if he dropped dead all of a sudden because then I wouldn't have to process legalities and stuff but its not on my wish list anymore. What I really wish is that he would just stay out of my life and out of B's life for good. Like he doesn't exist ... at all.

And then the light bulb moment came ... I realized that 2009 was not the good year that I wanted it to be simply because I was still harboring negative thougths ... I was still resentful and bitter until about the latter part of the year. With this ... I know now what I must do to get the year that I want and all the positive vibes.

With 2009, I will leave all ill feelings I have for the ex and his family and any negative wishes that I have in mind. I leave him and his family to the fates and karma. I am now truly free from him and I feel happy. After almost 5 years, I have finally shed off any trace of him.

I am free. I choose to be.

Star City 2009

where we went

1st ride for B (teacup!)

posing with Snowman thingie

the group!

Wacky Worm ride (B screamed like a girl!)

at the inflated funhouse

riding with his hommie ... lol

in front of the scary horror house

at Quack Quack

where we had dinner

souvenir hats

the gorgeous peepz hehescary!!!! Lol ... at the Dragon ride

in front of the nativity

posing by the BAY

group shot

B literally asked for this shot!

about to eat

Obviously, we had fun. I like bonding with my family and J. =)

fun times with friends

with Vida and Arnold at Manila Peninsula Hotel
with Jacqueline

with Neil

I hanged out with some old friends (meaning, we've been friends for over 10 years) and it felt good. I missed them. I missed being with them and simply being me again. It felt good to be with people who accept me for what I am, bad stuff and all. I miss being me, plain old silly me.

McDo date with B

the little devil

dessert

us

lil sis, Nanny A, and B

Though he makes my blood boil and drives me to the wall, I love this lil devil. Lol.

GO AWAY!

Zzzzzz ....

Mommy's 46th Bday

the gifts

the surprise gift

Kirk's gift

Arny's gift

so pretty at 46 ...

with the mango cake she loves

simple feast

with family

with Karl (other twin was at work)

Happy birthday Mommy! I love you so much and I am proud to be your daughter.