Today, I am happy to say that though I have moments where I still miss and yearn being in a relationship, these are but moments. Today, I can finally say that I enjoy spending time with my family more than being with a guy. Today, I can finally say that I enjoy eating out by myself, shopping by myself, and even watching a movie by myself.
Today, it will be almost 2 years since I have been in a relationship and I don't feel sorry for myself at all. Today, I can finally say that I love myself and I respect myself.
Gone is the girl who would cling to her boyfriend and demand to be rang at least 3x a day. Gone is the insanely insecure woman who got jealous of a gay guy who had a crush on my guy. Gone is the utterly ridiculous girl who needed to be validated every day that she is pretty and worth showing off. Gone is the scared little girl who worried that maybe no one would like me since I already have a kid.
She is now a thing of the past. She is not forgotten though because she is a testament of how much better off I am now.
Now, when someone I like doesn't like me back, I move on ... just like that. Now, when I text a guy I like and he doesn't reply, I am not affected. I don't demand. Now, when someone tells me we're better off as friends, I cry then I move on.
I have learned to move on just like that. I am able to do this because now I know what my worth is. If these guys can't see it, then it is and will never be my loss.
I have weight problems but I don't let it get to me. I will deal with it my way but I will never lose it just because of a guy. If the guy can't accept me at my worst, he doesn't deserve me at my best.