what could be our last day together

So this is it ... I am actually waiting for you to pick me up so that we can spend what could be our last day together. I'm not being negative, rather, I am just readying myself for the possiblility that this could very well be our last day together.

You and I, we've never been good with the whole long distance thing in the past. I know that you've had relationships that fizzled out when you no longer saw each other regularly. The same holds for me where I was interested in the guy but they had to leave for a while and it just died.

However, I am more positive with us. I want to believe that we can do it. We can make it ... but in case we don't ... God forbid that we don't ... I wanted to make this day extra special. Like they say, the last hurrah.

So today ... we're going to spend time together. We're going to have coffee and talk, we're going to create memories, and tonight, I have a small surprise for you. Something that I hope you would appreciate because I am doing this out of love. Yesterday when I was practicing with friends and freakin' out, I was asking people why I was doing this and they said, "because you're in love."

They were right. I am in love ... I am in love with you. I hope that you will enjoy this day. I'm going to do my best to not shed any tear. I know you don't want that.

I hope I'll get to keep my promise to not cry. I know I won't be able to.