Saturday, July 11, 2015
love, support, and acceptance
I have been in relationships where I gave my all out support and received nothing in return. I have also been in relationships where the guy gave it his all and I, not so much. Now, I am in a relationship where there is mutual support and it is the most exhilarating feeling in the world.
Even when we were dating, Bear has always been very supportive of everything that I do. He would constantly push me to be better in everything, be it my job, working out, or just plain writing. He says that he loves reading the things that I have written and he always compliments me on it.
Whenever I accomplish something and he learns of it, he is always excited and happy for me. I can feel that he really is proud of what I do for a living, my achievements, and the talents that I have. When I sing, he listens. When I tell stories, he remembers them. When I show him a new article, he reads it immediately. When I close a new client, he cheers me on.
All of these matters to me and I am grateful for it.
When I am not in the best mood, he pisses me off even more and when I get mad, he kisses my bad mood away and gives me a tight hug. He's crazy that way. When I am sad, he makes time to talk to me and ease me out of it. When I have fears, he reminds me of how far I have gone and when insecurities overtake me, he makes me feel like the most beautiful woman on Earth.
Now mind you, he's not perfect.
He is very private. He doesn't let people in easily and though I have been seeing him for quite some time now, he still has many walls up. He doesn't trust easily because he has been betrayed many times in the past by the people he should have been able to trust. Yet, he lets me in on his world little by little, allowing me a peek here and there. I do not try to pry, I just leave him be, hoping that perhaps one day he feels that he can trust me. See, I believe that trust needs to be earned and I am willing to earn it from him.
His first love also happens to be basketball and when it comes to basketball, no girl will ever get in the way. This is how I knew he loved me. He actually moved a game so that he and I could talk when I demanded that we needed to talk. This may sound trivial to some but trust me when I say that when a guy is deeply into something, you gotta be pretty special for them to willingly forsake their passion. Keyword: willingly.
He also sees himself doing better in Australia and soon he will be leaving. As much as I long to have him near me, I know that this is something he really wants and so I need to support him on this. I want to support him on this. I am supporting him on this. If he needs to spread his wings to be able to fly as high as he can, then I will set him free and let him fly high up in the sky where he belongs. You see, to know him is to know that he is not meant to be with mortals. He is meant to fly high and make great things happen and I want that for him.
He and I, we accept each other in all our flaws and quirks. We support each others dreams and we love each other. I believe that this is the kind of love that we all need to have in our life. We may not know what the future holds for us but we have made this promise: we will make this love last as long as we possibly can and we will always have love and respect between us. I think that at the end of the day, this is all that matters.