Tuesday, July 28, 2015

distance and doubts

I've never really been in a long distance relationship. The few attempts I had in the past started when things were still new and very shaky so when we hit a bump, it just disintegrated on its own without even having the chance to fight back.

I had too little faith and too much doubt.

I realized now that when people say "have faith" its actually so much easier to say it than own up to it. Having faith especially when life and love has screwed you over so many times is pretty hard. However, as what people would say ...

It's so hard to control the doubts in my head. Sometimes I think that maybe I would never hear from him again. Sometimes, I think maybe he just wanted out and he just told me that he was leaving the country. Crazy right? Sometimes, I think that maybe I was just someone to toy with and now that he's off to a new adventure, he all but forgot about me.

So many doubts ... but I am going to choose to have more faith. If for any reason this has all been a lie, then I'll just have to go through another cryfest and pick myself up. However, if this were the real thing, then wouldn't it be such a beauty?

If this were the real thing, then every ounce of faith is needed to make this work and I am willing to put in liters and liters of FAITH, not just ounces because I want to make this work.

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Hi! Let's all try to add more positivity in this world and adhere to the saying, "if you don't have anything nice to say, keep silent."

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