We have days where we talk from morning till night but most of the time, we just check in on each other a couple of times and then its radio silence. We give each other space and I think that was one of the things that you liked about us.
You are a private person and I need to respect that. You told me that you're not the type to report where you are or what you are doing and as much as I wanted to ask you why, I didn't. I figured that I should learn to respect that and not demand to be told where you are or what you are doing. I need to respect your space and just trust that whatever it is, its not something that I need to worry about.
Sometimes though, I wish I could just give you a ring and tell you what's on my mind or share a funny anecdote about something that I heard. Sometimes I wish I could just turn around and you'd be beside me ready to hear what I have to say.
It's the little moments where I miss you most. It's the little instances where I just wanna be able to tell you what's going on, how I am feeling, and what not that I miss you the most. It's in these instances that my heart aches for you.
I wish I had a dark brown teddy bear that I could talk to since you're not here. I know it won't respond but at least I still have a bear with me since my bear can't be here.
It hurts ... it aches badly but what keeps me going on is knowing that wherever you are, I know that from time to time, you are thinking of me and missing me too.