hey bear

Since we got together, I find that I want to talk to you more and more, share the little things that happen in my life and just let you in on my world a little bit more and more each day. However, you and I, we have never really been that type of couple who constantly talk throughout the day.

We have days where we talk from morning till night but most of the time, we just check in on each other a couple of times and then its radio silence. We give each other space and I think that was one of the things that you liked about us.

You are a private person and I  need to respect that. You told me that you're not the type to report where you are or what you are doing and as much as I wanted to ask you why, I didn't. I figured that I should learn to respect that and not demand to be told where you are or what you are doing. I need to respect your space and just trust that whatever it is, its not something that I need to worry about.

Sometimes though, I wish I could just give you a ring and tell you what's on my mind or share a funny anecdote about something that I heard. Sometimes I wish I could just turn around and you'd be beside me ready to hear what I have to say.

It's the little moments where I miss you most. It's the little instances where I just wanna be able to tell you what's going on, how I am feeling, and what not that I miss you the most. It's in these instances that my heart aches for you.

I wish I had a dark brown teddy bear that I could talk to since you're not here. I know it won't respond but at least I still have a bear with me since my bear can't be here.

It hurts ... it aches badly but what keeps me going on is knowing that wherever you are, I know that from time to time, you are thinking of me and missing me too.