Some things happened over the weekend that made me realize that a lot of the things that have held me back are actually nothing. I just allowed it to hold me back but in reality, I could just let it go just like that.
So I did.
The new hair symbolizes the new me. The layers that were chopped off, the foot of hair ... it all had to come off to give way to a better me. Last night, I had a talk with FM and I let go of a lot of things.
I used to be afraid to cut my hair. After 17 years, I finally did and it felt liberating. Not only was I able to accomplish something that I have been wanting to do for 17 years but I have also been finally able to let go of all the angst, pain, worry, and fear in my heart.
I let go of the unrealistic dreams, the ideals about love that will never be, and the fantasies. I am more realistic now and therefore, I know what to do to love myself more.
To a new me ... to a better me.