You! I hate you! You told me that we shouldn't get together so that we can remain in each other's lives. You told me that if we stayed as best friends, then we would be together until we both grow old and die. You promised me that no matter what, you will never leave me. You would always be there.
Where are you now? I need you. I need you so much. I need my Nald. I need to talk to you the same way I used to talk to you almost every Sunday morning. I want to be able to call you right now and just cry, the same way you used to listen to me cry for hours. I need that. I miss that.
I'm so lost Nald. I'm so confused, hurt, and angry. I'm in so much pain. I need you to tell me I'll be okay. I need you to remind me that I'm strong enough to overcome this.
Remember when that horrible thing happened? You talked to me. You listened to me. You told me that I'll be okay and I was. You told me that I'd forget that nightmare and I did. I was able to do it because you believed in me the way you always have since we were kids. I was able to overcome it because you were there.
Now, you're not here. I tried to call your number and it can't be reached. I guess it is saying the truth. You can no longer be reached by me. Sometimes, I wonder, if we got together before, maybe I'd still know where you are. Maybe, I'd be able to contact you somehow.
Maybe ... just maybe ... you'd be here beside me telling me once again that it will all be okay.