run away ...

I need to let go
I need to run away
I need to breathe
I need to let it be.

Stop holding me down
I'm drowning
Stop playing me
I'm hurting.

I need to go somewhere where I won't think of you
You consume me
I need to go somewhere loud so I won't hear my thoughts
It engulfs me.

I need to go somewhere
I need to escape ... me.

Have you ever cried so hard you couldn’t breathe ? That you lean your head against every wall in your room . Pacing back and fourth thinking What the fuck just happened . Everything happened so fast . Trying to think about what just happened but you’re also trying to stop the tears from falling . The back of your throat clenches, your fist squeeze tighter and tighter . Hitting everything you come in contact with . Have you ever cried so hard that the only person who can stop those tears is the person behind the reason why you’re crying ?