Mommy Paranoia

I used to be a carefree, no worries kind of person. I'd hear news about someone being maimed and I'd feel sorry but I quickly forget about it. That was then.

Now, I'm a paranoid mom. Every bad thing I hear on the news or from word of mouth sends me into a frenzy of worst case scenarios playing in my mind in an endless cycle. What if it was my son? What is my son would be this and that? Argh! Take for example the text message I got last night. It said that there would be an intensity 7 earthquake that will happen within the night and this was released by our own earthquake center.

Eeekkk! Of course I freaked out. I thought of all the stuff in my house that could possibly fall on my son. Every.Single.Thing. It was enough to make me age 20 years. Needless to say, I did no have a good night sleep.

Luckily, it wasn't true.

Of course, it's still running in my mind and I can't help but not think about it. What has happened to me? Why have I become a paranoid freak? Where's the carefree woman of before? What has happened to me?


* update: And like a message from heaven, I chance upon this blog entry. Thanks Very Mom. You made me feel better without even knowing how or why.