Monday, March 19, 2012

a smile ... a snicker ... a giggle ... and now, full of laughter

Many have read and reacted vehemently about not so funny after all ... indeed, it wasn't funny for tears were shed. However, there is more to this story. It seems the funny man was not yet ready to take his curtain call.

Here is the rest of the story.

The next day, we met up and hanged out. Days after that, we'd meet still and hang out. I know ... I am such a glutton for punsihment. In some way, I wanted to be hurt again and again so that I could get rid of the feelings that I had for him ... feelings that I thought were one way and not reciprocated.

That is, until the Cha Time incident.

It was Wednesday last week. I was supposed to attend an open bar event and he was supposed to be my wingman, the one who'd ensure I get to go home safe and sound, and in one piece. It was supposed to be how things were to unfold but it was not what happened.

We were at Cha Time and there was a couple who was sitting on the couch beside us. It was a table sharing kind of place so we didn't mind. What we did find peculiar was that they switched to the other couch on the other table though there was someone sitting in that area as well. Eventually, I noticed that the guy kept stealing glances at me and this is what pissed the girl.

I told FM about this and he said, "I don't get it. Why do they keep looking at you? You're pretty but its not really worth looking at."  OUCH!

I snapped. I told him I was leaving and that he didn't have to go with me anymore. He realized what he said and apologized. I was seething. I wasn't going to snap out of my anger. I was upset, mad, furious, frustrated, and most of all, I was hurt. I was really, really hurt.

Things were said and words were thrown. I blew up at him and he took it. He was sincerely apologetic and then he said, "You don't understand! You don't know anything that's why you don't understand." I told him of course I don't since he can't seem to tell me anything and quite frankly, I didn't want to know." He insisted and then he dropped the bomb on me. He said, "Okay! I like you. I like you as more than a friend and I didn't want to tell you because I wanted to get to know you without the romance thing hanging over our heads. I wanted to know who you are and what you really are."

I should have felt happy but I didn't. At that time, I was just so mad at him for being so stupid and indecisive; about denying what he felt and what not. Most of all, I was mad at him for hurting me when there was no need to.

I wanted to walk away. I wanted to open the car door, shout at him "well, I don't like you anymore!" and slam the door shut. I wanted to. My pride demanded it but my heart won this round. I decided to give it another chance.

I forgave him ... once again, I forgave him for hurting me. This should have been a sign that I had feelings for him, feelings that run deep ... that even I was not aware of, yet.

Friday came and I was feeling upset about work so I ended up drinking with my teammates. As luck would have it, FM picked me up. There I was, light as bubbles on a bottle of champagne and giddy as a child in a candy store.

Bad combination.

I was talkative and I had no control over my tongue. What I thought of, I'd say. I couldn't filter. There was a point in the conversation during the night where he told me that he said I miss you on the phone earlier and I didn't reply. I told him I did not hear him say it. He then said, "tsk tsk, I knew it. I'm so gonna be neglected when we have a relationship in the future." He said it in a joking manner. I laughed and said, "Hello? Neglected? How could you be when you're so taken cared of; when you're so loved ..."

BOOM!

and I realized what I said and shut up. *mortifying moment for almost 3 minutes followed where he just hugged me and I hugged him back because I could not show myself to him.* You gotta remember, this is the same guy who dissed me twice already and yet I was stupid enough to say the L word. GAH! What is wrong with me?

Eventually, I had to face him and this is what he said to me. "I have loved you for several days now. I just didn't wanna tell you because I didn't want to ruin what we have. What we have is so beautiful and perfect."

I was in shock. I expected, "sorry, I don't feel the same " or worse "lets just be friends" but I did not expect a revelation like that. Then he said, "I love you."

This is how FM came to be my boyfriend last Saturday, March 17, 2012.

He made me laugh, he made me cry, he made me smile, he made me snicker, he made me giggle, and now, its been days full of laughter. I know that there will be days he won't be funny at all but I also know that he will always find a way to make me smile again, snicker again, giggle again, and be full of laughter again.

I look forward to those days and decades.

53 comments:

  1. This story is out of the comfort zone, out of the box, & extra ordinary.Patience stretched out big time yet the heart thumps like nothing happened and only recognized what is inside "LOVE".

    Looking forward to the love story you'll be creating and I am sure this blog site will be one of the witnesses for it'll be written here all that the world should know and you would allow.

    CONGRATZ, future kumare!

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  2. congratulations! happy for you :)

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    1. thanks Ibyang! I can't wait for you to meet him when you get back :) o diba confident?

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  3. You've probably read my text by this time. I'm SOOOOOO happy for you. :) And I hope I'd get to meet him soon. Matutuos kami, hahaha. joke! :D

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  4. So happy for you!! :) i wish you and FM a wonderful and happy life ahead :)

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  5. awww, Im happy for you, i pray for your bond to be strong as days will pass :)

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  6. I knew it. Congrats! I feel you two have a lot in common. More than you might know. hehe

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  7. Congrats achie Kay! :D I'm so happy for you! I wish you 2 all the best! <3 Yiheeee~

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  8. Congratulations Kathy. Your love story is like a scene shown on TV. ;-)Love, love and more love to both of you....

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  9. I am glad that you have someone that will make your life happier. This one is a bang! May bf ka na! yehey! Congrats! Life is Kulkayful na talaga! :)

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  10. ... at talagang binalikan ko para basahin ang "not so funny after all" hahaha....
    awww.. happy naman me for you and FM!!!
    .. iba talaga chemistry nyo dalawa! kakatuwa! ay masanay ka na wag ma pikon.. para happy lagi! hahaha

    I love your stories!!! This could be a love book material someday!:))

    ... would love to see wedding pictures someday hehehe

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    1. hahahaha salamat Gemma! love book material ba? thank you ha ...

      chemistry namin nakakaloka :) wedding? chill muna tayo ... one week pa lang kami ...

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  11. happy for you... i hope you're relationship be blessed more. Yahweh bless.

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  12. Ohh...so what started as a sad story now continues happily...Cheers! Bawi ko na ung comment ko last week. Cge...deserve ka na pala ni FM.

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    1. thanks enzo ... bumawi naman siya ng bonggang bongga e :)

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  13. ohhllallala..congratulations! honestly, the ending unepectedly, but in a good way turn out like that after a series of, eer those sulking and words. have a great relationship...

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    1. trust me ... I never expected this ending either

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  14. yes yes yes congrats Bb Kathy Kenny jejeje iba ang kilig at smile u sa last photo jejeje

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  15. Hurrah for the new love life!!! I'm so happy for you (feeling close lang) but I'm really happy for people who found their happiness in a very unexpected way. I'm kinda hopeless romantic but yeah... congratulations! :) I wish you'll stay together until the end. Love love love.

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  16. Awwwwww... Naku kinikilig ako!!! Haha.. Sinubaybayan ko ang story nyo from the first date! So happy for you!! Congrats!! ;)

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  17. Your guy needs to be bitch-slapped for telling you you're not worth a second glance. But other than that, best wishes to you both! :)

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    1. Hahahahaha! Natawa ako sobra doon. Thank you :)

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  18. oh finally sunshine after the rain best of lucck

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  19. It's a clean, down-to-earth good report. At least you know how understanding he is. At least you know how he feels about the incidence and how you get away with it. That's life in reality!

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  20. Weeee!! Love story!! Nakakakilig. Pero sabi nga nila, that person who loves you will also be the same person who will hurt you.. Stay happy sis. Im happy for you. Love love love!

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    1. He will hurt me ... di maiiwasan yun pero as long as hindi naman sinadya and pag uusapan, things will work out

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  21. What else can I say but to congratulate you . Cheers to a genuine happiness.

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  22. very honest post.. woot.. go where your heart leads you.. where everything seems light and weherever you are happy.. woot.

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  23. Best wishes! You're one blessed girl, I won't tell a lucky girl, your just blessed :)) God speed!

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  24. lucky you this time!
    the journey just started, its time to make things work out.

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  25. Happy for you!
    5 years ago, I started a relationship as well.
    though not all days would be all laughter and fun,
    it sure would be a start of a new journey!

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  26. Wow, para lang akong nanuod ng romance movie ah...kakakilig naman kayo, hehe.

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  27. Wow! Such courage to share mortifying yet lovely experience. I wish you all the best with him

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    1. Hahahaha ... mortifying but it turned out pretty well ....

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  28. congratulations to you both! enjoy the years ahead and the more kulayful life!

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  29. men are unpredictable...but so happy for you. more happy days and giggles to come ;)

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  30. so happy for you may you and FM!!!

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  31. wishing you all the best.love makes the life so kulayful.

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  32. congratulations! here's to years of happiness, togetherness + laughter! ^_^

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  33. After all that you've been through, you deserve this! I hope he's "the one" na. You two look happy together in the pic. Kilig!

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  34. Kakilig! Hahays! Best wishes and Congratulations to both of you! Wag makalimot mag invite sa wedding!

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  35. Yayks! New love, new obstacles! Stay inlove! <3

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  36. Congrats! This post made me smile and giggle. :)

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  37. oh..so ito na pala yun..
    congrats girl!

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