My Mom told me that when I am upset, panicking, freaking out, worried, scared, or about to make a huge decision, I need to PAUSE. I need to pause and then pray. When I first heard it, I was like, yeah yeah I know but I didn't really believe it.
Recently, I was in a fight with someone and I said really hurtful words. I know that it was wrong but at that time, I just said it. I didn't really stop to think if it was worth fighting about, if it was worth hurting the person. I just did it.
Now, I am worried that I may have lost that person. All because I was stupid enough to be spiteful and because I kept thinking that it was okay to hurt him. I am a lousy person.
And I remembered what my Mom said. PAUSE. I wish I had paused back then. I wish that I counted 1-10 before I said anything. I hope this can still be fixed. I really really do. =(