Saturday, February 8, 2020

the night before Khali

Yes, this is my last post being a preggo Momma. After tonight, Baby MK will be out in this world and I will never be pregnant ever again.

Am I scared? Am I worried? Am I terrified out of my wits? HECK YEAH.

I never imagined that I would be pregnant again. I never thought that I would give birth ever again. I never wanted to if I am gonna be honest. B was a one-off. I didn't even want that pregnancy because I am real enough to admit to the world that I'm not a maternal woman.

My thought back then was: I can't even take care of myself. How can I take care of a baby?

Flash forward to almost 15 years later and 12 years of being a single Mom, I've come to realize that when push comes to shove, I can take care of someone else and I can definitely prioritize that person's needs over mine. I can go through anything to make sure that I am able to provide for my child.

So here I am once again, about to risk my life to give life to another child. It's what Moms do I know. It's just also really scary because I have another son who relies on me and me only.

I'm just really grateful that I have a strong support system behind me. Without these people, I wouldn't have been able to survive the last 12 years of my life and most especially, the past 9 months.

It has been one heck of a rollercoaster but I survived unscathed.

To while away the time, I bought my daily journal with me and some washi tapes. Heck, I'm even blogging now and plan on doing some diamond painting. It's going to be a long night for me and tomorrow, Baby MK will be here.

I know that sleepless nights will be here once more for at least a couple of years. Sigh.


  1. Congratulations momsh.. Welcome to the world Baby MK.. Stay strong lang momsh.. Kaya mo yan..

    1. Thank you! Grabe now ko lang nabasa comment mo. Ang lala hahaha.

  2. omg this is so so exciting! CONGRATS!!! I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU. Welcome to this life baby MK.

  3. OMG! Congratulations to you and baby! That is awesome and I wish you and baby much love!!!

  4. This is really exciting! Congratulations!
    Welcome to the world baby MK!

  5. Being pregnant is so scary but gives you a grateful feeling once you see your baby. Be a strong person not only for yourself and to everyone around you but most especially with your kid/s.

  6. This is such a sweet post and so exciting as well!

  7. I am so happy for you! You have been very strong and you have a great support network. You've got this! Can't wait to hear that everything went well and you are holding a beautiful new little one!

  8. COngratulations..MAy God bless you and your little one with happiness and prosperity...glad you shared your experience with us

  9. Congratulations on your newest addition! I appreciate your honesty and transparency with your feelings surrounding this. I think we should normalize talk like this and remove this expectation and stereotype surrounding motherhood. It takes all types and anyone can be a great parent even despite their feelings. I am sure your child will have a loving home and you will form a solid connection. All the best!

  10. That is so exciting! It is always scary and at the same time exciting to have a baby. Congratulations.

  11. Congratulations! You are truly amazing! I know that it can be overwhelming, but you are strong and you'll continue to be a great mother. I pray for nothing but the best for you and your family!

  12. That was so brave of you! ��
    This post reminds me of a friend who said almost the same things yet she still chooses to be a Mom. Goodluck to your motherhood journey again. Congrats!

  13. Hold on, Mama! Happy for you and your amazing grace and strength.


Hi! Let's all try to add more positivity in this world and adhere to the saying, "if you don't have anything nice to say, keep silent."

Showering you with unicorn poop so you'd always stay magical! Heart heart!