Yes, this is my last post being a preggo Momma. After tonight, Baby MK will be out in this world and I will never be pregnant ever again.
Am I scared? Am I worried? Am I terrified out of my wits? HECK YEAH.
I never imagined that I would be pregnant again. I never thought that I would give birth ever again. I never wanted to if I am gonna be honest. B was a one-off. I didn't even want that pregnancy because I am real enough to admit to the world that I'm not a maternal woman.
My thought back then was: I can't even take care of myself. How can I take care of a baby?
Flash forward to almost 15 years later and 12 years of being a single Mom, I've come to realize that when push comes to shove, I can take care of someone else and I can definitely prioritize that person's needs over mine. I can go through anything to make sure that I am able to provide for my child.
So here I am once again, about to risk my life to give life to another child. It's what Moms do I know. It's just also really scary because I have another son who relies on me and me only.
I'm just really grateful that I have a strong support system behind me. Without these people, I wouldn't have been able to survive the last 12 years of my life and most especially, the past 9 months.
It has been one heck of a rollercoaster but I survived unscathed.
To while away the time, I bought my daily journal with me and some washi tapes. Heck, I'm even blogging now and plan on doing some diamond painting. It's going to be a long night for me and tomorrow, Baby MK will be here.
I know that sleepless nights will be here once more for at least a couple of years. Sigh.