the night before Khali

Yes, this is my last post being a preggo Momma. After tonight, Baby MK will be out in this world and I will never be pregnant ever again.

Am I scared? Am I worried? Am I terrified out of my wits? HECK YEAH.

I never imagined that I would be pregnant again. I never thought that I would give birth ever again. I never wanted to if I am gonna be honest. B was a one-off. I didn't even want that pregnancy because I am real enough to admit to the world that I'm not a maternal woman.

My thought back then was: I can't even take care of myself. How can I take care of a baby?

Flash forward to almost 15 years later and 12 years of being a single Mom, I've come to realize that when push comes to shove, I can take care of someone else and I can definitely prioritize that person's needs over mine. I can go through anything to make sure that I am able to provide for my child.


So here I am once again, about to risk my life to give life to another child. It's what Moms do I know. It's just also really scary because I have another son who relies on me and me only.


I'm just really grateful that I have a strong support system behind me. Without these people, I wouldn't have been able to survive the last 12 years of my life and most especially, the past 9 months.

It has been one heck of a rollercoaster but I survived unscathed.


To while away the time, I bought my daily journal with me and some washi tapes. Heck, I'm even blogging now and plan on doing some diamond painting. It's going to be a long night for me and tomorrow, Baby MK will be here.

I know that sleepless nights will be here once more for at least a couple of years. Sigh.

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1 comments:

  1. Congratulations momsh.. Welcome to the world Baby MK.. Stay strong lang momsh.. Kaya mo yan..

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Hi! Let's all try to add more positivity in this world and adhere to the saying, "if you don't have anything nice to say, keep silent."

Showering you with unicorn poop so you'd always stay magical! Heart heart!