Monday, May 23, 2011

drained ...

This is not going to be a good post. Trust me. The state of mind I am in right now, the cusses and all the curse words I know are just flying at 120kph speed and it is not about to end. I don't know what happened 3 hours ago to now but it seems any kind of positivity just f*cking flew out the window. I am not positive. Anyone who makes the mistake of going all positive on me right now will seriously get their faces smashed into tiny little pieces.

I hate this. I hate this feeling but I can't stop hating it. I can't stop feeling it. I feel like a dolt, a nincompoop, and a complete fake. I hate it. I hate pretending to be okay, to be strong, to be this and that when sometimes, all I really wanna do is shake someone so hard to make them realize what idiots they are.

I hate this feeling of being fat and I hate that all I have going for me are my pretty face which is not really that pretty and my brains which is not that smart as well. ARGH! I f*cking hate this.

Right now, I just hate me. But of course, when my friends and family would ask me if I'm okay, I'm gonna plaster a big smile on my face and say "yeah I'm great." They don't read this anyway. No one who matters does.

Especially you. I bet you won't even know that I plan to hibernate, soon.

1 comment:

  1. You can smash and smother me to little bits of pieces but I have to tell you that you can do it. Godbless.


Hi! Let's all try to add more positivity in this world and adhere to the saying, "if you don't have anything nice to say, keep silent."

Showering you with unicorn poop so you'd always stay magical! Heart heart!