I choose US

The past few days has been anything but ideal. You just started work and I just had my first weekend without you. Ideally, we would talk about your first day and you would complain about it while I would soothe you and calm you down, there to support and cheer you on. I would have spent time with my family and played catch up on things.

Instead, you and I, we fought. I got mad at you and we said hurtful words. I cried. You were frustrated. You apologized. I accepted it, didn't accept it, doubted you, tried to make peace with it, and we're now slowly getting things fixed and sorted.

In the middle of all of this, a friend asked me, "what do you really want out of this?" I thought about it long and hard and I realized, even with all the craziness that is going on, I want us.


I still choose us my bear. I choose you. I choose us. So yeah, its not gonna be that easy and I'm sure there will be moments doubt may come into play. I hope you will be patient with me as I work to get rid of the doubts that are clouding my head.

What matters is that at the end of it all, I choose US. I just wanted you to know that.