The past few days has been anything but ideal. You just started work and I just had my first weekend without you. Ideally, we would talk about your first day and you would complain about it while I would soothe you and calm you down, there to support and cheer you on. I would have spent time with my family and played catch up on things.
you and I, we fought. I got mad at you and we said hurtful words. I
cried. You were frustrated. You apologized. I accepted it, didn't accept
it, doubted you, tried to make peace with it, and we're now slowly
getting things fixed and sorted.
In the middle of all
of this, a friend asked me, "what do you really want out of this?" I
thought about it long and hard and I realized, even with all the
craziness that is going on, I want us.
I CHOOSE US.
still choose us my bear. I choose you. I choose us. So yeah, its not
gonna be that easy and I'm sure there will be moments doubt may come
into play. I hope you will be patient with me as I work to get rid of
the doubts that are clouding my head.
What matters is that at the end of it all, I choose US. I just wanted you to know that.