I had the wonderful chance of seeing FM again. As anyone who reads my blog would know, we're currently not together because of mistakes I made. This is why I was very happy that he agreed to see me yesterday and meet my friend.
On the way home (yes, he took me home so I was very happy) he asked me, "Won't you be hurt with this? You get to see me, we get to spend time but we're not together because I don't want us to be together. It's like being given a lava cake with the utensils and being allowed to cut it but you cannot eat it?"
I was silent for a moment and then I said, "No. It's because I love you. I just love you. If you don't want to love me back right now, if you don't want to be with me right now, I have to accept that. It's a result of my mistake. It's a consequence I need to accept. As for me, I will just love you and show you that I love you. I'll be waiting for you to realize that you belong with me, that you need to give me, give us, another chance. Till then, I'll just love you."
He said thank you. If I know him well enough, I know that he's hurting that I'm hurting. After all, all he ever wanted was for me to be happy. Unfortunately, right now, he can't make me happy because he needs to heal. So for now, my love will have to be big enough for the two of us.
Till then, I will be The Man Who Can't Be Moved ....
Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you
'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
So I'm not moving
I'm not moving