You see, I used to wish that I would meet someone who was smarter than me ... someone I could talk to for hours ... laugh with, converse about anything and everything under the sun. I also said that I wanted him to have a car, financially stable, and taller than I am. I asked that he be a book lover and knows how to appreciate food, movies, music, and be opinionated. I wanted someone who would treat me like a queen and take care of me.
I met someone like that. It was perfect. Unfortunately, the circumstances he was in prevented anything from further developments. He was a forbidden.
I guess this was the part that I missed to tell God. So God, I'm revising my list and I am making it really specific now.
I know that I have been so blessed in life. You have thrown storms, tsunamis, hurricanes, typhoons, earthquakes, and landslides my way and yet, here I am, still standing strong and able to do the catwalk of life. I am deeply grateful. This is also why I have been giving back in anyway I could.
I may not be financially that stable but I am able to provide for my son's education and needs. When I am not, you send angels my way to help me.
You gave me smarts and I am in awe of that. However, it seems that you really didn't want anyone to be perfect so I also got unwanted flab and a pretty stupid heart.
So I pray to you for my ideal mate ... that he comes when I am healed and whole again. I pray for my ideal mate to be ...
someone who loves you, believes in you, lives with you in his heart and follows your teachings ... a man who is centered on you is more likely to be a great partner ...
someone who will love me and cherish me ... respect my opinions, my beliefs, and ME ..
someone legally single and is not in a complicated relationship with anyone ... someone who is truly free to be with me
someone who will be proud to have me as his partner and not just use me as decor ...
someone who wants me for me, flabs and all ... not someone who is just out to make another conquest
someone who is family oriented and respects women ... so I know that I will not be battered again physically, emotionally, mentally, and psychologically
someone who has infinite patience because I'm bipolar and I have mood swings at times
someone who has a strong character who can handle me .. who can tame me but not break me ... someone who can accept me, my past, my mistakes, my flaws
someone who can take care of me ... and my son ... he needs to accept that my son will be a part of our life ... a LARGE part
someone who is LOYAL and FAITHFUL ... a one woman man ... I know they are rare but I demand for someone like that ...
someone understanding and not insanely jealous ... someone I can trust and who will trust me
someone who has courage and confidence in himself.
someone who knows how to make money and how to keep it.
someone whom I can talk to for hours and not be bored ... about life, love, lessons, music, movies, books, plays.
someone who will laugh with me, not at me
Physically ... I want someone at least 5 years older than I am ... at least 5'9 in height, good strong built, pleasant looking and with no smells please. Dimples would be nice. No beer belly.
There God ... I think I've been specific enough ...
And if he doesn't exist, then PLEASE .... PLEASE ... PLEASE .... do not let me fall in love again.