letter to heaven

Dear Mark,

Hey there! How's heaven? Masaya ba? I hope so. I need to know that there is something to look forward to at the end of the tunnel. Asa naman ako diba na dyan ang bagsak ko? Hehe. I hope so. I haven't been the nicest person pero I try to be naman. That's what matters right?

Anyway, ang tagal na kita gusto sulatan e. Sabi kasi nila you would know what's happening with me kasi nga angel ka na ngayon. So alam mo what's happening with me. I haven't been good. Not for the longest time. Pero diba nga sabi mo magaling akong artista e. Akala ng marami okay ako. Okay naman ako e. Minsan lang sumesemplang. Parang ngayon. Umiiyak na naman ako.

Bakit ganon? Bakit hanggang ngayon masakit pa rin? Bakit nasasaktan pa rin ako? Bakit sya okay na? Bakit Mark? Kelan ba to mawawala talaga? Why does he still have the power to hurt me? Why don't I have that power over him? Why is he okay? Why am I not?

Help me naman o. I don't want to hurt anymore. I'm tired of hurting. I really am. I just want this over and done with. Please. Is that too much to ask? Is it?

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