in a relationship

When I was 15, I had my first boyfriend. This was a serious relationship mind you eventhough we were both only 15. He was always at my place since we were not allowed to date and one of the things I remember most about him was that he asked me this one question that none of the guys who got with me ever asked.

What do you want in a relationship?

It was such a simple question but it really defined how our relationship went. I think it actually helped make that relationship last for almost two years. We defined what we wanted in a relationship and what we did not want. We defined how things were going to be. I remember setting a lot of "don't do this" and "don't do that." I've realized now that I was very immature and very insecure.

Nowadays, I have an entirely different list in mind for what I want in a relationship. I yearn for different things than I did over 13 years ago. I know better now and I hope that I have learned the lessons I am supposed to.

What do you want in a relationship?

I want to be in a relationship and at the same time still have the freedom that I enjoy. I know my limits and I won't cross it unless I am forced into a corner with so many restrictions. I am the type of girl that if you put too many rules on me, I will still follow and adhere coz I love you but slowly, I will resent you for it.

I want to be in a relationship where I will feel secure. I want to be able to not hear from you for the next 10 hours and not worry that maybe you were with someone else already. I want to be assured and reassured when I ask for it, most especially when I don't.

I want to be babied and taken cared of but at the same time, allow me to baby you because I'm just built that way. I buy food you've never tried, I get things I know that you like, and will wipe the sweat off your face because thats how I am. I want to complete your collection (whatever it is) because I know it will make you happy. In return, it would be really nice if you would get me cotton candy or things I like sometimes. I'm very easy to please.

I want to be in a relationship where I can be myself and yet improve who I am as well. I want you to feel secure and happy with me, and I want to feel that you are proud to be with me. I want to know that you want what's best for me, for you and what's best for us.

I want you to be jealous from time to time so that I would know you don't want to lose me. At the same time, I want to know that you trust me. I want to feel treasured and loved.

In return ...

I will make you feel like you are the most loved guy on earth. I will make you feel that you can do anything you want and I will be there at your back all the way. I will let you go on your boys night because I know you need to. I will let you go to bars and ogle girls. Note, ogle, not touch, kiss, or have sex with. I will get your boys magazine for you and even read them with you. I will be your fantasy and if I can make it happen, I'll fulfill your fantasy.

Just love me. That's all I ask. That's all I want.