This week, I have done a lot of things that I regret. Yes, I regret them. I won't go into much details but I know that what I did was wrong. I am happy to realize though that I still have my sanity in check and I know that remorse is always a good motivator to turn things around and right the wrongs that I made.
People always tell me to be this when I'm down and depressed. I know they are right, I know that what they say is right, but honestly, sometimes, I just want someone who will hug me and let me cry and allow me to break down. You see, I'm strong enough to break down because I know that afterward, I can pick myself up again. Sometimes though, plastering that smile on my face to look all happy and good takes a toll.
I am not a quitter; not anymore.
I have also realized and accepted that everything happens for a reason. Everyone we meet, everyone we encounter, everyone we talk to ... its all happening for a reason.
I'm still a bit sketchy as to what I'm supposed to be but I know that it will involve being a better Mom to my son, a better daughter to my family, a better friend and coworker as well as a better person to the world.
Overall, I know I plan to be a better me.