I've been in love since I was 15.
I've been in and out of love for the last 15 years.
I've always jumped from one relationship to the next. I first fell in love when I was 15 and it lasted almost 2 years. I rested for 2 years and after that, its been 2 year relationships to the next 2 year relationship. I move on so easily or maybe, I distract myself with the next guy so that I won't mourn the loss of the previous guy.
I just lost someone recently and I know that everyone thinks I am about to jump into the next guy who comes along or anyone who catches my attention. They have a right to think that but this time they are wrong. I am taking a hiatus from love. Yes, you read that right.
I am taking a hiatus from love.
The last 15 years, its been one relationship after another. I molded myself to whatever my partner prefers and adjusted even to their lifestyle and eating habits. I can tell you the guy I was with on the movies I watched, the food that I liked, and other things.
Now ... it will be me ... all me. It will be what I want, what I need, what I fancy, what I desire. I will find out things about me. I will relearn new things about myself and regain what I've lost. I've lost so much of myself that at times, I don't even know who I am anymore.
So to anyone who is interested ... be ready to be in for the long haul. I am not ready to fall in love again ... I do not want to ... I won't. If you are willing to wait, good for you because I am worth it. I may not know everything about me yet but I know that I am worth it.
Yes, I am worth it.
You can still never tell. Pero ayos na din to, rest mode. God bless.
ReplyDeleteI used to do it, every time a relationship ends, I would find someone new immediately. nakakapagod din pala un. just enjoy being single.
ReplyDeleteits okay that sometimes we are hurt.. at least tayo ang na hurt at hindi ang tayo ang naka-hurt.. love love love!
ReplyDeleteseems like your story is that of the runaway bride...julia roberts' character never really had the chance to know herself, even how her eggs were cooked. you're right to take a hiatus to find yourself again coz i'm sure she's just there.
ReplyDeleteYou never know when love comes, but I understand the choice to take a break from love. :) Best of luck to you!
ReplyDeleteI guess you're choosing to "love me more," I guess for any relationship to become successful, the persons involved should be secure enough in their love that they have for themselves, it is only when you have great love for yourself that you can have a more mature and responsible relationship. You show respect to your partner because you demand respect also, you are attuned to their needs because your own needs have been taken cared of, you share more of yourself because you are your own complete person before him/her.:)
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