baby just say yes ....
This is a song by Taylor Swift. Its currently on repeat mode in my head, maybe because its the Christmas season or maybe because I'm just feeling a wee bit sentimental? I really don't know.
Lately, a lot of people have been asking me the perennial question "why are you still single?" Sometimes, I'd smile. Sometimes, I won't answer. Sometimes, I'd reply and say "there are so many boys that I can't decide on one." Sometimes though, I just wanna answer and say, "there seems to be no one out there for me. Maybe I met him and let him slip or maybe, he just really doesn't exist."
It's been almost a year and a half since I was in a relationship. In the time that I was single, I have met a number of guys. A few, I went out with once or twice and then no more. I either find them boring or we just don't seem to click . Some who became steady dates (read: 5 dates or more) died either of a natural death or simply because we didn't see things the same way and no one wanted to bend. The 3 guys who managed to get close and dent my heart ... lets just say that one couldn't wait, one was confused, and one was ... never mind.
Obviously, I am not lacking when it comes to a source pool of boys. They were there when I need them, they are there even when I don't need them. Gorgeous ones, cute ones, sexy ones, chubby ones, ugly ones, feeling gwapo ones, short ones, tall ones, poor, rich, with job, without a job, with business, and egad, a student. They were there. They were everywhere.
What was not there was a MAN who was strong enough to be MY man. What was not there was a man who wanted a real relationship. What was not there was a man who knew what he wanted in life. What was not there was a man who could be faithful and loyal. What was not there was a man who would be proud to be seen with me (flabs and all) and who wanted to hold MY hand, just my hand. What was not there was someone who would accept me for who I am and support me in my endeavors in life.
I don't need someone uber gorgeous. I don't need someone who has a 6 pack abs. I don't need someone who I will put on display for everyone to see. I don't need someone that will make other girls swoon and giggle. I just need someone who will be mine.
I need someone who will take care of me the way I want to take care of him. I want someone who will respect me and love me the same way I will love him and respect him. I want someone who will want to make me his and drop to one knee and ask me to marry him. I want someone I can lie on the couch with, play board games with, watch TV series and pig out with. I want someone who will give me peace of mind and not doubts. I want someone I can laugh with, dance with, sing with, and just be with. I want someone I can grow old with.
All I want is a love story ... all I need is a man to say yes.
To this I say, "O Romeo Romeo, wherefore art thou Romeo?"