Afternoon came and we had to go to our Chinese class when a lil girl gave me a letter saying it was from someone. Upon opening, I saw that it was from M. The letter stated that if I don’t return the letter to him before I go home that day, we’d be together. How juvenile is that? How crazy was I to fall for it?
Crazy enough coz that night, we got together. I didn’t know then but that whole cat and dog stage was actually the courtship between us.
I didn’t encounter the honeymoon stage for the first 5 months of our relationship. The first 5 months saw me crying on a weekly basis and becoming really miserable. I learned that while I was falling for him, he was using me to get back at his ex.
I vowed to make him fall in love with me in such a way that he would never forget me and that I’d continue to haunt him even in dreams. I did everything my 15 year old brain could think of to make him love me. And love me he did. He eventually fell in love with me and became Mr. Perfect for Now.
He was very jealous but my mind said that it was because he loved me. He’d give me lots of chocolates so that I won’t lose weight coz he was scared I’d leave him for someone else. He was always at my place from morning till night because we weren’t allowed to date. My family came to love him and he came to regard my Mom as the Mom he never had. He’d call me very night for the entire 17 months that we were together even when he was on vacation in the
or HK. He became my world and I was his. We were inseparable. US
Then pride got in the way.
We were talking one night and he said to me that he thinks he may be starting to have a crush again on his ex. They were hanging out a lot during those times coz she was helping him with something. My pride couldn’t bear it and so I said that after 17 months of being together, you still want her, then go be with her.
I held on to my pride and never let go from that moment on.
He tried to get me back for the next 6 months but my young heart wasn’t able to handle it. I still loved him but I couldn’t go back. I don’t know why, but I couldn’t. It took me two years to get over him.
Funny thing about our relationship, it started out with him using me to get back at his ex. Then he hooked up with his ex again after we broke up to prove to me that someone still wants him even if I don't want him anymore. And she hanged on to him for dear life. He married her when he got her pregnant. On the night of his wedding day, he was at my place trying to convince me to elope with him. This was 2 years after we broke up. I wanted to. My heart was screaming to go with him but I knew it was wrong.
I couldn't decide ... there he was, at 2am, outside our house, begging me to go with him. I loved him. So much. He was my first love. The only man I loved at that time. The only man I thought I would love. So I said ...