Afternoon came and we had to go to our Chinese class when a lil girl gave me a letter saying it was from someone. Upon opening, I saw that it was from M. The letter stated that if I don’t return the letter to him before I go home that day, we’d be together. How juvenile is that? How crazy was I to fall for it?
Crazy enough coz that night, we got together. I didn’t know then but that whole cat and dog stage was actually the courtship between us.
I didn’t encounter the honeymoon stage for the first 5 months of our relationship. The first 5 months saw me crying on a weekly basis and becoming really miserable. I learned that while I was falling for him, he was using me to get back at his ex.
I vowed to make him fall in love with me in such a way that he would never forget me and that I’d continue to haunt him even in dreams. I did everything my 15 year old brain could think of to make him love me. And love me he did. He eventually fell in love with me and became Mr. Perfect for Now.
He was very jealous but my mind said that it was because he loved me. He’d give me lots of chocolates so that I won’t lose weight coz he was scared I’d leave him for someone else. He was always at my place from morning till night because we weren’t allowed to date. My family came to love him and he came to regard my Mom as the Mom he never had. He’d call me very night for the entire 17 months that we were together even when he was on vacation in the
or HK. He became my world and I was his. We were inseparable. US
Then pride got in the way.
We were talking one night and he said to me that he thinks he may be starting to have a crush again on his ex. They were hanging out a lot during those times coz she was helping him with something. My pride couldn’t bear it and so I said that after 17 months of being together, you still want her, then go be with her.
I held on to my pride and never let go from that moment on.
He tried to get me back for the next 6 months but my young heart wasn’t able to handle it. I still loved him but I couldn’t go back. I don’t know why, but I couldn’t. It took me two years to get over him.
Funny thing about our relationship, it started out with him using me to get back at his ex. Then he hooked up with his ex again after we broke up to prove to me that someone still wants him even if I don't want him anymore. And she hanged on to him for dear life. He married her when he got her pregnant. On the night of his wedding day, he was at my place trying to convince me to elope with him. This was 2 years after we broke up. I wanted to. My heart was screaming to go with him but I knew it was wrong.
I couldn't decide ... there he was, at 2am, outside our house, begging me to go with him. I loved him. So much. He was my first love. The only man I loved at that time. The only man I thought I would love. So I said ...
Hmm... So he got married at the age of 18 or 19? That's really young. Hay bitin pa rin lolReplyDelete
19 ... he got her pregnant eDelete
That's some twist of fate for him. No fault on your part if he can't late go of you then.Delete
They say first love never dies. NOT TRUE! It does. Buti na lang you did not elope with him. That would have been stupid.ReplyDelete
It sounds funny, but it's the reality. You can't afford to let him go, though you know that you're being fooled and you're subject to second rated for that matter. Well, that's in reality an infatuation. Practically, an irrational kind of love. Nevertheless, it's your very own love in dilemma and you wanted him for you really loved him. At least you've overcome it and had not "fallen in love" with him. I think you know what I mean of this. Now, I'm interest to know more about your interesting, funny or whatever love life.ReplyDelete
If you're meant to be time will come you'll be back to each others arms. I believe that statement by the way. That happens to my aunty and my kapitbahay. First love tapos naghiwalay 20 -25 years later sila na uli. All the best for you love. Just wait God will find the right one for you.xxReplyDelete
aww. this is heart-devastating.ReplyDelete
pero, i couldnt bear the fact that he got someone preggy then wants to elope with somebody. what a jerk. excuse me for that word. T_T i mean, all those pride will do nothing except bad things. ah. teenage angst!
Good decision you did not listen to his desire.
Ano ba ang susunod na kabanata?
Part 1 was kilig but this is quite sad. Sometimes it's really hard to decide which to follow, your mind or your heart :( Continue!!! :)ReplyDelete
Yup...besides, to elope at the age of 19 or 18 at that is such a foolish act. Why waste your time of youth when you still have a lot of things to enjoy. True love waits.ReplyDelete
Sang ayon ako kay ser lakwatsero, buti na lang talaga n___nReplyDelete
Minsan, kelangan nating magsakripisyo para maabot yung "mabuting tayo" sa hinaharap :)
You are inspiring me Kenny to do my own version too of blog like this as I am always telling.ReplyDelete
Madrama talaga. Para maging mala-telenovela sana eh may kasamang walk out sa wedding tapos umiiyak siya sau haha. Just kidding!
Ay bitin, sana maread ko yon kasunod anyway i don;t think first love never dies kasi so far s experience k totally forgot na sya.ReplyDelete
Sometimes ate, ganyan talaga ang love.. It doesn't even make sense pero umiibig pa rin ang mga tao.ReplyDelete
pang maalaala mo kaya ang love story kenny:)ReplyDelete
I missed the other one, oh gosh I need to go back and read part one. I am a sucker when it comes to love stories!!ReplyDelete
ohe. sad. i am not sure if this makes sense but sometimes guys test girls like the time when he shares with you about his ex, he might just be waiting for a sweet reply telling everything about your love. that's what my bf is actually doing telling stuffs the opposite way but in such cases i always end up angry and never gave what they expect which are just sweet stuffs.ReplyDelete
A Love Story of young love sweet love...ReplyDelete
Parang teleserye nga...abangan sa susunod na kabanata
Keep on blogging and inspiring others.
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awwww first love talaga.. tsk tsk tsk.. Nung first love ko and first heartache it took me at least 2 yrs to get over him too.. can't eat and so diffcult to smile, and the constant pain in my heart! so so painful!! but knowing the guy now.. nah it was a waste of time hindi nya man deserved ang tears ko! hehe..ReplyDelete
It's quite sad how this ended. But anyway, I'm sure God has plans for your love life.. :)ReplyDelete
Kathy bitin na naman! Graaaaaabe! Ha ha ha! Aba para na akong sumusubaybay ng komiks nito lagi ako nakaabang ano ang susunod na kabanata! Paano mo ginawa na painlabin siya ng todo? Tips naman dyan ha ha ha!ReplyDelete
My first love didn't turned out as well either. Parang ganyan din we we're both young, only 15, that time. We were solid for 4 years then his family moved to the US. then ayun na, hindi namin kinaya ang long distance relationship. Natukso sya. And then we broke up. Tapos naging sila. Then mga ilang months lang nagbreak din sila kasi he found out na mas mahal nya ko. Too bad lang kasi nasaktan nya na ko at wala na kong tiwala sa kanya.ReplyDelete
hahaha! Buti na lang nag advance reading ako.. I know how this story ends.ReplyDelete
hehehe soo kilig.. but life goes on nga diba... now at least you are happy :)ReplyDelete
Crazy but you know jealousy is sometimes sweet. Agree? Hehehe. Laughed at the "He’d give me lots of chocolates so that I won’t lose weight coz he was scared I’d leave him for someone else," so possessive but sometimes I am like that. I love the story. Super! :)ReplyDelete