I remember praying for Mr. Right. I remember someone telling me that I needed to be specific when I prayed so that God would know what I want. Since I have been floating a bit here and there for the last two weeks and I've said more than twice that I don't know why I can't seem to get things in order, I realized that I need to tell God exactly what I need so that he knows precisely how to help me.
I want a high-paying, stable work-from-home job that will pay me monthly for years to come. I want it to have 15 VLs and 13th-month pay. I want this job to utilize my skills and at the same time, value my contributions. I want this job to have enough flexibility so that I can still take care of my son at night should he need me.
I want more paid content creator projects. I want to be paid what I'm truly worth. I realize that people who started after I did get paid more for doing the same things that I do simply because I didn't know the right value of my content creation.
I want to be able to save more than enough money so that we can pay for B and K's school, have at least 100k set aside in their respective banks, have 500k in our emergency fund, and another 1M in our joint account.
I want to be able to purchase a house and pay 50% right off the bat so that the monthly won't be as bad and it can be paid off in 10 years. I don't want a big house. I want something cozy, preferably a bungalow with a small garden, 2 car garage, a big kitchen, spacious rooms, a really nice bathroom, and a balcony where we can sit and relax from time to time.
I want to be able to purchase an SUV so that we can all fit comfortably when we travel.
I want to be able to have twice a year family vacations that will create great memories for my kids. I want more good family moments with my husband and kids, something that I didn't have when I was growing up.
I want us to be financially stable. I'm not aiming for rich but stable enough that we can provide for the needs of everyone in our family be it for school, vacations, things we'd need, and God forbid, medical.
I pray that my teenage son will be strong enough to face the world. I pray that he will not be easily swayed by people who do not have his best interest at heart. I pray that when he commits a mistake, he learns from it, and then picks himself up again.
I pray that through this whole journey from teenage years to being an adult, B will never forget that he has his Dad and me no matter what.
I pray that my toddler will never stop learning and having a thirst for new things. I pray that he will be curious but at the same time, grow up with respect for others, and kindness in his heart.
I pray that my husband will always remember that his commitment is to God first, me second, and our family third. I pray that he will always be at my side when we face trials so that we can surpass anything. Lastly, I pray that he will never be tempted to cheat on our marriage.
Most of all, I pray for protection for my family and me from any kind of harm, be it accidental, medical, or people who don't have good intentions for us.
I am so thankful for the life that I have right now. I have a husband who loves me, a teenager who is responsible, and a toddler with a zest for life. I have a roof over my head, food to eat, and opportunities coming in left and right.
I know that the financial hardships we are facing are on us. We didn't know how to handle it and so, we ended up spending too much.
Now that I have truly learned my lesson, I'll be more mindful of how I handle things. Hopefully, this super-specific prayer will help keep things on track.
This I pray in Jesus' name.