Me: Do you ever think of me? Do you remember me when you're busy?
Him: You make regular guest appearances in my head.
This was around 1.5 months ago.
It has been 3 days now that I have not heard from him. I don't know what I said wrong or what happened but he just stopped replying to my message. I knew that he was losing interest but I thought it was just me being my paranoid self. Apparently, I was spot on.
It really shouldn't matter you know. Seriously, it shouldn't. Sino ba sya? He's just some guy I went out with 3x. Why should he matter? So what if he and I talked endlessly for almost 2 months. I'm not a stapler. I shouldn't get easily attached.
But I do.
And it hurts ... a lot.
I'll get over this. I know that much about myself by now. It just hurts though because ...
I really should just stop caring. I don't understand people who keep saying that we should continue to love and care like we have never been hurt before because seriously, how can you continuously put yourself out there?
I don't understand why guys that I like just seem to go away.
Really, it's not. All I wanted is to just have someone to go to at the end of the day and talk with. All I want is to have someone who I can have fun with and hang out with. All I want is to have someone to share my life with and it seems, there is no one.
I really should just stop. It's over for me. It really is over for me and love.