Mommy's Pre-Bday Dinner

We ate at Yakimix in MOA. Food was so good. Trust me on this. It opens at 6pm and we got there are 630pm. Waiting list was already at #28. It was that good. People were willing to wait to get to eat. It's a buffet place with Japanese, Chinese, and Korean food. YUMMY!!!


Afterwards, we went around, shopped and had coffee at Figaro, a local coffee shop. =) My Mom was very happy about everything. So we did good. Hehe.

1st Xmas Gift for 2009

Thank you so much BERKS. I loved it! =) It's already on display in the house. =)

mommy mode

I have been on Mommy mode since December 1. I'm proud to say that save for a few losing of my temper here and there, I have been a pretty good Mom to B. I've been bathing him, reading a book, getting his milk ready, and playing with him. We've also been studying together which is fun most of the time.

With my hopefully new work, I can be flexible enough that I get to have a choice between being there in the morning, or being there at night to tuck him in. I'm going to be a pretty regular Mommy for him. I'm really hoping to land this job with the rate I want.

Amongst everything we do, its the nightly ritual that I like best and the afternoon naps he takes. I bathe him, clothe him, get the milk ready, and while he's drinking his milk, I read him a book. Then he goes to sleep but before that, he would say "good night, I love you, sweet dreams" and give me a sounding smack.

I love it. These are the moments that make everything worth it.

a random shot at MOA (with a LONDON sign ... its a sign for me since the main office of the company I am applying for is in London. Hehe ... I hope it is a GOOD sign.)

a bundle of nerves

I am a bundle of nerves today until Tuesday when I get the call. I really, really want this Communications post that I applied for because if the following reasons:

• I get to use what I studied in college
• Its a regular job; no more night shift.
• When the country goes on holiday, I go on holiday.
• I get the weekends off like a normal person.
• Its flexi hours. I just need to render 9 hours and I am out.

Please pray that they and I agree on the pay rate and that I get hired asap. PLEASE.

clingy, needy, whiny B

Since B got sick at the start of November, he has become clingy, needy, and whiny. Almost every word coming out of his mouth is "Mommyyyyyyyy ...." with matching sniffles. Now, I am kinda flattered that he seems attached to me but it is becoming ridiculous in the sense that he doesn't even want me leaving the house to go to work. He would say "I miss you Mommy. Why are you leaving me?" and I have explained it several times that I need to work because his worthless father does not give us even a single centavo eventhough he has a high paying job.

It was kinda sweet at first but now its just irritating especially since he seems to not want to listen to anyone. It's always Mommy, Mommy, Mommy. Now, to some of you, you may be thinking, what is wrong with me for complaining about this? Well ... I am a working Mom. I need to be a working Mom. I HAVE TO WORK.

Due to this, I need to be able to leave my son to my Mom and his Nanny and know that he will be okay. Lately, he refuses to eat and just whines. I don't know what triggered this but I find myself having to force some form of detachment so that he will go back to the way he was before: a healthy, independent, loving kid.

Anyone know what I can do to get that B back?

One Word: Fold

I cannot fold
I cannot give you what you want
No, I will never do it
How can you ask me to do the unthinkable
How can you ask me to do something unfathomable
No, I will not do it
I cannot
My life depends on it
Please, do not ask me again
I won't
I will not fold.

the celebration

blowing the candle

the cake

with BERKS and TWINS

fooling around with Cha

with his Mom

He had fun. We had fun. Family and friends were there. That's all that matters. =) Happy birthday! =)

J's 27th Bday Celeb

the gift

forever partners

He looked pretty happy. What do you think?

Happy birthday! =)

moments with B

Went out to buy some groceries and ended up taking silly pics with B. Lol.

date with B at MOA

on the way ...
one of the toys

giant Xmas tree ...

at French Baker

I had to go to MOA to get my iPOD and thought of bringing B along with his nanny, sort of like a mini date. It was fun and tiring because B was too energetic and loud for comfort but still, I had fun. Here are some pics.

unfaithful

I don’t think I can ever be unfaithful to someone I love. I don’t see myself committing this act to someone I still have feelings for or I have feelings for. It’s just not me. It’s just not in me to do it.
Maybe this is why when this was done to me, it shattered my world and until now, I am left picking up the pieces. The last time someone betrayed me this badly was almost a year ago. The person who did that said that he thinks he has already made up for it, that we were quits.

I disagree.

I still feel hurt when I remember it. I still feel crushed when I remember the events that transpired. I still am shattered by it. No, we are not quits yet. No, we are not even. No, you have not made up for it. Trust is something that is so hard to build again, and less than a year is not enough time to build back something you just broke over something so superficial.

So why do I stay? Why do I let it go on? Simple really … it is because I love. And it is because of this love that eventually, I will be able to completely move on. Not now, not yet, but soon. I just need more time. I need more proof. I need more reassurance.

I hope it will be given. I hope it will be given without hesitation, without drama, without fights. And if not, if you are unable to, then please, the door is wide open - - just close the door gently when you leave and break me for the last time.

DVD marathon .. obsessions ... and what not ...

Today was a day of mindless entertainment save for the latter part. I went home at around 7 am after a fun fun night hanging out with friends. When I got home, I slept till noon but made sure that I was up by lunchtime to spend it with family. Afterwards, we just basically hanged out at home. I tried to scrapbook but the creative juices needed was just not there and it didn't happen. I think I need my iPOD with me to get it going again.

I watched Dance Flick, The Rebound, and 500 Days of Summer. Dance Flick was so-so, The Rebound was charming, and 500 Days of Summer sorta met my expectations. It was a story about a boy meeting a girl, and not a love story. I love the intro part the most. LOL.

It was also the 1st time that I didnt' do much a text marathon. Hehe. It was kinda refreshing. I guess I am feeling more secure now.

However, I am obsessing about getting the Ericsson SATIO phone, iPOD speakers, and a laptop. I am so so so obsessing over it. Sigh.

So that's how my Sunday went. How did your Sunday go?

One Word: overflowing

I am overflowing
with love
with blessings
with happiness

I choose to be
in this state
and not that.

I want to overflow
with love
with blessings
with happiness.

I will it to happen
I want it to happen
I want to ...
overflow.

dinner at Sentro

the table
the pica pica platter

us

the plate

venti forever

We just had a really good dinner at Sentro yesterday. It was such a nice surprise because I was ready to have a quick, cheap, fast food place. Lol. Imagine my surprise when I was dragged into Sentro. It's a really cozy restaurant in Greenbelt 3. The service was FANTASTIC and the food was great. Just wanted to share it. =)

some awesome things in my life

I have been truly, truly negative the last few weeks and it amazes me since I used to be this bubbly, positive, giddy person. Heck, I haven't even been able to blog anything good lately and that is just not acceptable. So now, I will write about some awesome things in my life to remind me AGAIN of how lucky I am.

1. supportive family
2. supportive friends
3. I still have work. STILL.
4. I got some interviews (hopefully I passed.)
5. I have a roof over my head.
6. I still get to eat food that I want, anytime I want.
7. I have J.
8. my brother has an awesome job and my other brother is graduating next
9. my lil sis is still on the top 3 honor list eventhough she's been studying on her own
10. my Mom and other family members are in good health

All in all, we are still pretty lucky if I may say so. Right?