I was invited to attend a press conference for an app that's meant to encourage people to PRAY. It lead me to watch this video and I ended up crying.
I cried for so many things and I want to pray for these people and these things.
So I will.
I am beyond grateful for the fact that you have kept my family and I safe from the virus. Thank you for protecting us from harm, be it biological, physical, or medical. Thank you.
Thank you for the food that we eat, the home that we are living in which shelters us, and for the opportunities for us to earn a living.
Thank you for my Dad. He was never the ideal Dad who would make time to sit down and bond but he made sure that we were able to go to the best schools so that we would have ammunition in this world. He was almost never there but at least I have a few fond memories. Very few but at least it exists.
The song "Do You Want to Know a Secret" by the Beatles will always have a special place in my heart because it will always remind me of the jamming that we had. It was one time but at least it happened.
Thank you for my Mom. She did the best that she could and she instilled a lot of good values that I have used in life. She wasn't perfect but she did her best to make sure that I get straightened out, that my feet remain on the ground, and that I can survive anything that life has to throw at me.
I miss you Mommy. You have no idea how much I miss you but I am so proud of myself because I've been able to stand on my own two feet. You made sure that I can do this and I am doing it. I just wish you could see me right now. I'm not helpless anymore.
I'm able to manage my own household, finances, and my family. I've become what you wanted me to be. Resilient, strong, and a fighter.
I worry about you. I worry if you're sleeping enough, resting enough, eating enough, or staying healthy. I wish I could be there but I know that I need to lead my own life and I know that you need to be there for K.
I just miss you so much at times.
I'm learning to cook. My house is halfway decent and clean most of the time though I know it won't pass your standards still but I'm at 60% of what you would like. I think I'm doing pretty well.
I hope you're okay. I hope you're happy. Lord, please make sure my Mom is okay ha.
I pray to God that you are okay. I pray that you will be okay. I pray that you have found your way back to Him and that in time, you will be okay, that you will be our Shobe again.
I miss you. I miss the girl in this photo. I miss my little sister.
I hate what happened but I know that God has a reason why things happened. I just wish that at the end of all of this pain and heartache, you will be okay and that you'll pick yourself up again and remember that we are your family and that we will always want only what is best for you.
I love you. You may not love me or even like me right now and I may not like the things that you have done or been doing but know that I love you and I pray for you every single night.
These three people, they're not in my life right now but I know you know that I love them so much. I hope that you will keep them safe, healthy, and strong. I hope that you watch over them as much as you do us.
This I pray in Jesus' name.