Tuesday, March 10, 2020
Khali at One Month
The last month has been a whirlwind of emotions. I gave birth to my 2nd son and it has been a rollercoaster ride. The night before his birth to today has been filled with love, tears, learning, and so much more.
I've learned to be more patient. When you have a crying, fussy baby at 2am, you learn to survive and tr not to be too angry or pissed. Of course, being human, I slip up which is why I am still learning. I'm getting better at it though.
I've learned to treasure the moments I have with you. You see, Mommy is not the most maternal woman on Earth. I'm not the best when it comes to babies but you are teaching me to enjoy taking care of you, becoming your human swing and just singing lullabies to you.
I've learned about second chances. When your Ahia B was growing up, there were so many things that I had to be mindful of that I wasn't able to fully immerse myself in his childhood. I had to be a Dad more than a Mom and I had to be careful about what I share to the world because I was constantly watching over my shoulder. With you, I am given a second chance of being a Mom and just enjoying it.
I've learned the value of partnership. Your Dad and I, we are not perfect. We don't have the perfect relationship but we are learning what it is to be partners in raising you and in raising your Ahia B. We know that for us to grow as a family, he and I need to be partners in every aspect of the word.
Lastly, I've learned the value of complete trust. You trust me 100%. You rely on me for everything. It is so overwhelming and it is so mindblowing. I have forgotten what it feels like to have someone rely on no one else but you.
Thank you. Thank you for coming into our lives and for reminding me of everything that I have forgotten.