They say that architects design things and they make things even more beautiful. This must be true because when you stepped inside my world, things suddenly started looking a lot better. I found myself smiling more and just being more positive. I was okay before you came into my life but when you came in my life, you added a bit of stardust and things just started looking more glittery and shiny.
Kind of like the smile that I wear these days.
However, it is a little bit too early and we have just been seeing each other for roughly 4 weeks now so I know that it is too soon to really make a judgement but you see ...
There I go again, smiling like a dolt and I can't stop it. When we message each other, the smile just sprouts on my face and people have been noticing which actually really, really makes me feel like this:
I think that you too are scared because there's just this chemistry between us and it's so palpable that people can actually touch it when we are together. Even though the two of us are extremely busy, we have managed to talk to each other even when we are countries apart or there's no internet. You make time and in return, I make time as well.
Perhaps it is because we have shared so much of each other that I feel like a part of me knows a part of you and sometimes, that small part of me wants to clarify what we really are, where this is leading, and if we're exclusive or not. I know you're only seeing me but I don't know if I should only see you or if I should keep my doors open because I don't know what you really want with me.
I'm trying so hard to be untangled and what not but you draw me in and you just keep pulling forward and sometimes I love it but sometimes, I get confused. I wish I could ask you what you plan with us so I know what path we are taking. You see, I have a path in mind for us.
So there .... I just don't know if I can ever say these to you personally. It's a good thing you don't read my site. It feels good to vent here and know that it's a perfectly safe spot.