letting go

Finally, I am letting you go.

It hurts so much to do that but I need to let you go. I need to release your hold on my heart, your power to hurt me needs to be freed. I cannot survive another day with you being able to twsit and turn my insides with a comment or a stare. I need to do this for myself and my son.

I did fight for this relationship and this love. I wanted to give it a chance to work out but not at the expense of my own happiness. I just cannot love you that way anymore. I did that before and look where it got me. You still fell in love with someone else.

You know what though, if I could be assured again that you would never hurt me the way you did, I would let go of everything to be with you. But you cannot give me that. You won't even try to change for us.

And so, I must let you go.


7 Comments:
Mike Abundo said...
I'm not sure what's going on, old friend, but I'm here for you.
at 12:36 AM

Ana Shariah said...
Oh Kens you make me cry...Don't worry, it's going to be ok. You're already on your way to merging the outside-only and the onve-upon-a-time- inside happy you. :)
at 4:52 AM

Mommy Len said...
I'm sorry for what's happening to you right now. Stay strong my dear friend, you can survive this. *hugs*
at 10:39 PM

Daiz said...
I thought things were getting better for you but I guessed wrong. If this would make you happy and you think it's best for Brent, then it's a good decision. Good luck!
at 8:33 AM

Daddy Forever said...
I'm so sorry Kay. Not all guys are like that. You'll find the right one someday and he'll make you happy again.
at 3:06 PM

zhasha said...
i hope its not what am thinkin... hope this is not the end of your beautiful love story.. both of you should work things out.. its not the woman who should always compromise.. do not make your life miserable because of wrong decisions.. think about it..am hoping things can still be fixed.. let your love for each other bring back the warmth of your relationship.. hugs..
at 3:16 AM

wayabetty said...
I'm so sorry that you're going through this tough time. Hang in there!
at 10:08 AM