I've been in love since I was 15.
I've been in and out of love for the last 15 years.
I've always jumped from one relationship to the next. I first fell in love when I was 15 and it lasted almost 2 years. I rested for 2 years and after that, its been 2 year relationships to the next 2 year relationship. I move on so easily or maybe, I distract myself with the next guy so that I won't mourn the loss of the previous guy.
I just lost someone recently and I know that everyone thinks I am about to jump into the next guy who comes along or anyone who catches my attention. They have a right to think that but this time they are wrong. I am taking a hiatus from love. Yes, you read that right.
I am taking a hiatus from love.
The last 15 years, its been one relationship after another. I molded myself to whatever my partner prefers and adjusted even to their lifestyle and eating habits. I can tell you the guy I was with on the movies I watched, the food that I liked, and other things.
Now ... it will be me ... all me. It will be what I want, what I need, what I fancy, what I desire. I will find out things about me. I will relearn new things about myself and regain what I've lost. I've lost so much of myself that at times, I don't even know who I am anymore.
So to anyone who is interested ... be ready to be in for the long haul. I am not ready to fall in love again ... I do not want to ... I won't. If you are willing to wait, good for you because I am worth it. I may not know everything about me yet but I know that I am worth it.
Yes, I am worth it.