I read somewhere that people who want to be loved have dogs because dogs give unconditional love. You can leave them the whole day and when you get back, they would still be there, happy to see you and even grateful that you are back.
People who have so much love to give on the other hand love cats because cats never want love. They accept love at times because they love to be doted on but they never demand nor give love. They are just there, tolerating humans but never demanding or giving love. When they do though, when they purr beside you and sit on your lap, you feel like you just won the lottery.
I am the dog that loved uncondonditionally. I gave and gave. I kept wanting to leave but I couldn't. I was fiercely loyal and I couldn't stay away. I ran after him like crazy. I stayed on the side waiting for him to give me an ounce of attention. When he did, I would jump up and down with joy, so happy he finally noticed me again until he didn't. Then I waited again.
He is the cat. Sometimes, he accepted my love but most of the time, he just let me love him. He would let me take care of him and he would tolerate my presence. Sometimes, he would purr beside me and allow me to touch him ... to hold him in my arms for a few seconds before realizing that I was a human who shouldn't be touching him.
He's a dog person who needed to be loved and I am a cat person who had so much love to give. For a few moments, he let me in his life and I reveled in it. I didn't know that it would be fleeting. I didn't realize that I was simply being tolerated.
I thought we were friends. I thought I mattered. Yesterday, I realized that I didn't ... not at all ... not in any way or form. I reached out and gave it my all and everything was thrown back to my face. I am not perfect but the way I was treated, it was like I wasn't even human. Sadly, he probably doesn't even realize what he did or if he did, like what he said, he doesn't care about my feelings at all.
I'm not okay. I don't know when I will be but eventually, I will be. I just don't know when. This is what happens when a cat loves a dog. It doesn't work. Cats and dogs, they are never meant to be together.
They are not meant to break each other's hearts.