Monday, December 8, 2014

life is about moments ...


When your life is threatened to be cut short at any moment, it makes you think of what really matters in life. It makes you reflect on what you are doing and why you should continue it or simply stop.

It makes you ponder.

So just in case my life is cut short I wanna be able to say this ...

My Mom ... you are the most beautiful person on this planet. You are my rock, my anchor, my reason for wanting to be strong and being strong even when I am not. You are the most resilient person I have ever seen in my life and you are simply amazing. You are one of a kind and the way you love someone astounds me and scares me at the same time because you just love, love, and love even when the person does not deserve it. I love you is not enough to say the love I feel for you.

Ate ... you and I, we have always been at odds with each other and we have spent a lot of time bickering but I know this and I hope that you know this. I will die and kill for you. I will always be here for you no matter what and I will always love you no matter what.

Karl ... you will always be my little brother no matter how macho you are now. You will always be the boy who cried because you broke some girls heart and you felt bad about it. I was so proud of you at that moment because it showed that you are a good man. I hope that never changes. I love you.

Kirk ... you will always be my plucky little brother. You will always be the boy who called me to say that you did something bad and if you were a bad person for doing it. I was so proud of you because even when the person you did that to deserved it, you still felt bad about it. Don't change that. I love you.

Kianna ... you will always be my 2nd baby. Yes, you are my 2nd baby. You are the little older sister that I was lucky to have. You were so mature and so understanding when I broke down from a heart break. You held me when I am the one who supposedly should be doing that. Sometimes, I believe that it is actually you who should be the Achi and not me. I hope you continue to learn from my mistakes so that you won't ever have to make them. However, if you do make a mistake, learn from me that you will be okay ... it will be okay. Never give up. Never. I love you Shobe.
 
Allan ... you are my best friend. You are the one person outside my family who has accepted me fully, crazy and all. You have seen my horrible side, lived through my crazy and still end the day with, "you okay Kens?" We do not always talk but I know you are there when I need you. You will never turn your back on me and I am so deeply grateful for that. I love you. I love you Allan. You are the best boy friend that any girl can ever have.

Sherlyn ... I'm just super happy that you seem to finally have found the one. I hope he takes care of you the way you deserve to be taken cared of. You were there for me when we were kids and I will always be thankful for that.

Jacqueline ... my sweet Jacqueline ... I hope you learn to fight for your happiness and claim it. You deserve to be happy my dear. You deserve it.

Vida ... you have helped me grow up from the spoiled brat of a girl that I was that you initially met in the office to being, as you say, a mature strong woman. You have been my cheerleader, always reminding me of how far I have come and how far I can still go. I love you. You are my older sister from another mother.

 FM ... you were the one. I'm sorry I hurt you. I hope you know that I am truly sorry for hurting you and losing what we had. I hope you find that one woman you need and deserve in life. I will always love you.

E ... thank you. You know what I'm thankful for. We have known each other for only a short time but you have become such a significant person in my life. You matter to me and I know that I matter to you as well. Remember what I said okay? You are an amazing person. You deserve someone who will be more than satisfied with you, accept you, and love you with all their heart. Find that person and never settle for anything less.

Bez ... you will always be the first person outside my family who tried to protect me from a guy who tried to break my heart.  I love you.

Monica ... I have learned so much from you. You are still young but you have so much to share. Your positivity is contagious. Never lose that.

Most importantly, my son.

You are the reason why I am still surviving despite the many tragedies that I have gone through. You are the reason why I never give up but if time comes that I won't be here anymore, please remember that whatever happens in your life, you will survive it. You will as long as  you don't give up. Persevere and make things happen. I love you so much baby. To me, you will always be my baby.

To my friends who I am not able to mention anymore ...  I'm just really grateful that my life has been filled with moments that took my breath away. Some of them good, some of them bad but all of them, has made me who I am and I hope that if I should  leave sooner than expected, I have been part of the moments that took your breath away as well.

Cheers to life.

11 comments:

  1. Hey Achie Kay! Always know that you've touched my life and I cherish you as a dear friend. Yun lang, bakit ganito yung tone ng post mo? >.< I know Thanksgiving has just passed, pero bakit para kang may touch of goodbye 'to? :(

    Anyhow, let's see each other soon! I need to give you something! ^__^

    PS: Stay safe and dry!

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  2. I love my family as much as you do. If someone will write me a message like this, I would be eternally grateful to him/her. Have a nice day 😊

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  3. It just happened that I saw this quotes a while ago.

    "Cherish your memories because nothing is as it was before and nothing will ever be the same again...
    Times may change and there will be good days and bad days but in the end, life will go on...
    New stories will be made, the sun will shine, days will be bright and flowers will bloom...
    Never lose hope and always hold on a little longer." - Karen Kostyla

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  4. I don't know if you are going through something but whatever it is, It is really helpful to write about it. I've been there and writing about it released all the negativities away.

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  5. Awww... this is nice. They say that tears are words left unspoken. Guess you won't be doing a lot of crying anymore :) Cheers to life!

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  6. Family are always number one. I miss them back home. This is heart melting. Thanks for sharing!

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  7. This is a very sweet and touching story! This is also a nice way to thank and show appreciation to the people you love the most!

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  8. If you're going through something, let me just say this: "Everything will be alright".
    We often take advantage of time and life that we forget to say things like this to those who have been there for us. Thanks for reminding me. I'll message my family & friends privately over the weekends. :)

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  9. Your post is full of love but it seems that there's a hint of sadness in you while writing this. Hope everything's fine.

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  10. You never know when will your time come so always see each day as if it is the last :)

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Hi! Let's all try to add more positivity in this world and adhere to the saying, "if you don't have anything nice to say, keep silent."

Showering you with unicorn poop so you'd always stay magical! Heart heart!