Monday Affirmations # 12

Oprah Winfrey Master Class Surrender - Very Inspirational Video



I watched this video and I realized that I need to SURRENDER ... I need to surrender my quest for love and that one guy whom I hope will be mine. I should stop looking for him and let things be.

I should just focus on making myself a better person and stop obsessing about what I did wrong, what I did not do wrong, and what happened in my past relationships. God has a bigger dream for me and if I keep pushing for what I want, I will not be able to live the dream He has for me.

So God, I surrender. I surrender it all to you. I surrender.

birthday greetings ...

This is the first time in 5 years that this blog has been alive that I am actually going to ask something from my readers. I'm turning 31 this Sunday the 30th and I was wondering if you guys could send me birthday greetings. A photo of yourself with a greeting or just a greeting that you wrote personally would be enough. I think it would be a nice thing to have and its something that I saw from a fellow blogger, Gasoline Dude.

I actually met him because I sent him one and he came over here to the Philippines.

I would really love to receive some from you so I hope you will indulge me. :) Please email it to kayinanutshell at gmail dot com.

Thanks! :)

munimuni # 71

This week, I have done a lot of things that I regret. Yes, I regret them. I won't go into much details but I know that what I did was wrong. I am happy to realize though that I still have my sanity in check and I know that remorse is always a good motivator to turn things around and right the wrongs that I made.

 

People always tell me to be this when I'm down and depressed. I know they are right, I know that what they say is right, but honestly, sometimes, I just want someone who will hug me and let me cry and allow me to break down. You see, I'm strong enough to break down because I know that afterward, I can pick myself up again. Sometimes though, plastering that smile on my face to look all happy and good  takes a toll.

I am not a quitter; not anymore.

I have also realized and accepted that everything happens for a reason. Everyone we meet, everyone we encounter, everyone we talk to ... its all happening for a reason.

I'm still a bit sketchy as to what I'm supposed to be but I know that it will involve being a better Mom to my son, a better daughter to my family, a better friend and coworker as well as a better person to the world.

Overall, I know I plan to be a better me.

choco ... the new it girl

We just met her this afternoon but I can tell we will have a good relationship. She is cute, cuddly and she seems genuinely nice. I hope that she grows up to be a real sweetheart. Seriously, I do.

We saw her peek her head out of the box and give a small yelp. It seems that the ride was a bit too much for her and her heart was hammering all over the place. A few minutes later, she was sleeping soundly in our lap. What a sweetheart!

Meet the new IT girl ... meet CHOCO.

I give myself ...

 

I give myself permission to be me. 

planner craze ...

It's coming ... and its starting again.

Looks like I'm going to be spending a lot of time at Starbucks again :)

charmed ...

Eeekkkk! I finally got my Starbucks Charm Tumbler. I have been hounding friends left and right who go to Hong Kong to get me one and finally, the Philippines has released one.

I am in bliss.

Is it not gorgeous? I am a mugger but this tumbler has been on my wish list since I first saw one months ago. Eeekkk.

Chihuahua

I've been hearing about this place a lot lately and I finally got the chance to eat out at this place. I love the name of it. It reminds me of our little dog named Wiccanrose who is also a chihuahua but looks like a rat permy ex-boyfriend. Hmm, maybe that's why he's an ex no?

Chihuahua is a MexTex restaurant that serves authentic Mexican food. I was lucky enough to have been entertained by 2 of the owners and they gave me a tour of the place and some trivias.

salsa bar

with the owners

the hot sauce collection

Photo # 1: It's the salsa bar where you can get different kinds (6 I believe, I was too busy looking at the owner to pay much attention to the salsa which I was never fond of) and it ranges from mild to crazy spicy. My date went to try some but I was too chicken to try it.

Photo # 2: That's me with the owners. They were really nice and handsome too. Imagine, food + gorgeous and smart men = heaven. Haha

Photo # 3: This is their hot sauce collection. It's crazy how many they have. I actually wanna help them out and I'll ask some friends who's going to places we don't really visit to get some hot sauce for them. It's nice to be part of someone's collection of items.

Seriously, I liked the place. I liked the ambience, the owners who were very accommodating (or maybe we got lucky coz we went there so late at night that there were almost no people around) and I love the food. I'm not really into Mexican food but I am starting to develop a taste for it.

I like how its so laid back and relaxed. It wasn't pretentious at all. It was a place where you could just kick back and slouch and be loud with friends. Love it.

tortilla soup

3 kinds of tacos: pork, chicken, and beef

nacho GRANDE, good for 4

My date and I feasted on these and it was so good but the servings were so big and we just couldn't finish everything. I did have a bite of all that we ordered and I was just in bliss. The food was everything it should be and everything it shouldn't be (I'm talking about the calories ... I could feel my hips expanding.)

It definitely did not disappoint. It may have a funny name, but trust me when I say you'd be telling people, "Lets go to Chihuahua."

Monday Affirmations # 11

Yes, you are special. If you are single and looking, STOP. Do not look  for that person. He or she will come at the right time, the right place, and at the right moment.

I promise. I'm also just waiting for that person and I know that when the right time comes, at the right place, on the right moment, he will be there and he will introduce  himself to me. Then, our story will start.

ever elusive ...

I am lucky. I have a son who thinks the world of me. I have family that supports me and will always be there for me. I have friends who are real and accept me, flaws and all. I have a work that allows me to support my son and lets me buy some of the things that I just want but do not need. I am healthy, a tad bit too healthy but I'm good with it.

I am lucky. However, I am not lucky in love.

Love is the one thing that remains ever elusive to me. It is the one area of my life that I just can't seem to grasp fully. Love just befuddles me.

Cycle is I meet someone, that someone goes to great lengths for me. He makes me happy, he makes me laugh, he exerts EFFORT, and makes me feel like I'm the only girl in the world. This remains constant until I start to fall too. When I do,  then the guys just disappears.

Weird right? Weird and painful. Unfortunately, this is the cycle.

It's tiring. Seriously, its tiring. Sometimes, I wish my heart would just stop falling. Maybe, if it stops falling, it would stop breaking. If it stops breaking, then I wouldn't have posts like this to write about.

Just maybe.

munimuni # 70

This week, I spent a lot of me time. I watched a play by myself, had coffee with myself, and went around by myself. Me time. Love it.

I also had lots of events this week. It was tiring but it was oh so worth it. 

Next to Normal musical

Sales Townhall

Geek Fight

I also spent time with my family. We went around the mall today and had fun. It was just the four of us but it was fun.

his new bag which I pray would last for years

All in all, this was a pretty good week. I found time for myself and my family. I'm all good.

Geek Fight: All Hallow's Geek

Since this has become a monthly thing for me, I have started to look forward to actually reviewing and getting a decent score during Geek Fight. This geek fight edition though, I wasn't able to review at all because life happened and so I aimed for the next best thing: havin' fun at Geek Fight.

As with past geek fights, it delivered. The night was spend laughing like hyena's because of inane answers we came up. Some of which are as follows:

Q: What is the real name of Chuckie in Child's Play?

A: Chuckie Dreyfus. 

Another one was what does CAG stand for? I answered: "Cute ang Group ko." Hahahaha ... since we didn't know the answer, we just aimed for the KitKat that was being given away for crazy answers.

We received only 2 twinkies. Our record was 5. Yes, we are proud of it too.

All Hallows Geek was the name of the event and we were asked to come in costume. Since our group name is the Worst Group Ever, we decided to live up to the name and not exert effort in our costumes. We came up as Black Ninja's and brought black shirts. LOL. This was our inspiration.

This is the end result. Pretty cool right?

Unfortunately, the host thought that we were bombers or terrorists. Hence, this picture.

Overall, we had good food and fun which is what mattered. Oh, I also got pictures of the other teams who came in costume. They rocked!

And with that ... we had an all hallows geek.

Next to Normal

I watched this show, prepared to be impressed and blown away but what I did not expect was the amount of tears I would shed at this play. I literally had tears falling down my face at certain parts of the musical and I could feel what the characters were feeling.

I was the Mom longing for her son ... I was the daughter, wanting to be noticed ... I was the husband, loving and not knowing if I would be loved again ... I was the son, wanting to be real but could never be. 

There was a line in the play that went like this.

I don't want normal coz normal is too far away. I just want something next to normal.

I want someone to be there for me. I want something that is next to normal. because normal is not something that exists in my world. I'm bipolar and the guy has to accept that about me and have infinite patience.

I am the one who knows you
I am the one who cares
I am the one who's always been there
I am the one who's helped you
And if you think that I just don't give a damn
Then you just don't know who I am
 

I chanced upon a co-dancer. It seems we also share a love for musicals. Here's to us and for something that is next to normal.