saturday night fun ...

The day started with a lot of jitters on my nerves because of a talk that I was very wary of with someone special to me. Finally, after almost an hour of being late, he arrives. I am no longer pissed for he is nothing but consistent that he is late in all our meetings. I told him that if he will ever be on time, I'd do some backflips just to show how appreciated it would be. LOL.

Anyway, the talk went pretty well and I feel relieved now. Seriously. The amount of agonizing I went through was just not worth it. It was a bit too much and I am really glad that we were able to talk and I got answers to the questions in my head. I feel much better now. :)

Afterwards, we parted ways and I was ready to meet my new friend Tin and spend some girl time with her. On my way, I received a text from someone asking me out ( I think!) and I told him that I couldn't watch a movie but if he would like, he could join my friend and I and joked that he could also treat us to dinner.

He agreed. YEY ME! Hahahaha.

We ended up eating at John and Yoko and I was thanking my lucky stars because in just one week, I was able to try out 3 of the restos that I have been wanting to try in Greenbelt 5. All of them for free. Hahahaha. Such a lucky gal I am.

Anyway, here are some shots of the John and Yoko Place and the food we ordered.

chicken teriyaki and mango pizza (super yummy!)

sunset prawn salad

scallops

wagyu rice

Afterwards, when we were barely able to walk, we planned to go to SB and just chill when we realized that we had to attend another event by our online community. Not wanting to be the killjoy or being tagged unsupportive, we trooped over there at Central in Makati and stayed for an hour. We honestly enjoyed their Slush Iced Tea. YUMMYNESS! See, there was no need to get drunk just so we could have fun.

And to cap the night, we went and tried out the Drive Thru of the Starbucks at the Fort. It was a first for both of them and a second time for me. They had fun and I had so much fun as well. :)

Thanks guys! It was truly a relaxing night.

the filler ...

I used to call myself the  meantime girl ... and someone told me that I shouldn't call myself that. I realized that he was right ... I wasn't a meantime girl. I am more of a filler. I fill whatever is missing in a guy's life. If they miss having a companion, I am that. If they miss having a movie buddy, I am that. If they need someone to talk to, be smart, and laugh at their jokes, I am that as well. If they need someone to flatter their bruised ego, then I'm there.

I'm a filler. And sometimes, these guys make me feel special ... sometimes, they make me feel like I matter ... and sometimes, I believe them.

And so, when I stop filling whatever is needed to be filled ... and when they stop making me feel like I am special ... when they stop caring ... I need to pretend that I don't hurt.

After all, I am just a filler.

date a girl who reads ...

This is by Rosemarie Urquico. I wish I wrote this. It shares what my exact thoughts are.

"Date a girl who reads. Date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes. She has problems with closet space because she has too many books. Date a girl who has a list of books she wants to read, who has had a library card since she was twelve.

Find a girl who reads. You’ll know that she does because she will always have an unread book in her bag.She’s the one lovingly looking over the shelves in the bookstore, the one who quietly cries out when she finds the book she wants. You see the weird chick sniffing the pages of an old book in a second hand book shop? That’s the reader. They can never resist smelling the pages, especially when they are yellow.

She’s the girl reading while waiting in that coffee shop down the street. If you take a peek at her mug, the non-dairy creamer is floating on top because she’s kind of engrossed already. Lost in a world of the author’s making. Sit down. She might give you a glare, as most girls who read do not like to be interrupted. Ask her if she likes the book.

Buy her another cup of coffee.

Let her know what you really think of Murakami. See if she got through the first chapter of Fellowship. Understand that if she says she understood James Joyce’s Ulysses she’s just saying that to sound intelligent. Ask her if she loves Alice or she would like to be Alice.

It’s easy to date a girl who reads. Give her books for her birthday, for Christmas and for anniversaries. Give her the gift of words, in poetry, in song. Give her Neruda, Pound, Sexton, Cummings. Let her know that you understand that words are love. Understand that she knows the difference between books and reality but by god, she’s going to try to make her life a little like her favorite book. It will never be your fault if she does.

She has to give it a shot somehow.

Lie to her. If she understands syntax, she will understand your need to lie. Behind words are other things: motivation, value, nuance, dialogue. It will not be the end of the world.

Fail her. Because a girl who reads knows that failure always leads up to the climax. Because girls who understand that all things will come to end. That you can always write a sequel. That you can begin again and again and still be the hero. That life is meant to have a villain or two.

Why be frightened of everything that you are not? Girls who read understand that people, like characters, develop. Except in the Twilightseries.

If you find a girl who reads, keep her close. When you find her up at 2 AM clutching a book to her chest and weeping, make her a cup of tea and hold her. You may lose her for a couple of hours but she will always come back to you. She’ll talk as if the characters in the book are real, because for a while, they always are.

You will propose on a hot air balloon. Or during a rock concert. Or very casually next time she’s sick. Over Skype.

You will smile so hard you will wonder why your heart hasn’t burst and bled out all over your chest yet. You will write the story of your lives, have kids with strange names and even stranger tastes. She will introduce your children to the Cat in the Hat and Aslan, maybe in the same day. You will walk the winters of your old age together and she will recite Keats under her breath while you shake the snow off your boots.

Date a girl who reads because you deserve it. You deserve a girl who can give you the most colorful life imaginable. If you can only give her monotony, and stale hours and half-baked proposals, then you’re better off alone. If you want the world and the worlds beyond it, date a girl who reads.

Or better yet, date a girl who writes."

And I think this lil poem from 10 Things I Hate About You sums up everything ...

I hate the way you talk to me and the way you cut your hair,
I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when your stare.
I hate your big dumb combat boots and the way you read my mind,
I hate you so much it makes me sick, it even makes me rhyme.
I hate the way you’re always right, I hate it when you lie,
I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you’re not around and the fact that you didn’t call.
But mostly I hate it that I don’t hate you.
Not even a little bit.
Not even close.
Not even at all.


* no original thoughts from me. It's all a jumble of words for now.  

Chateu 1771 dinner

A high school crush of mine surprised me by waiting for me at the ground floor of my office Wednesday night. Surprise being the keyword here because I had no idea he'd be there in the first place. I was ready to go home and mope but he saved the day.

We ended up at Chateu 1771 and I was so happy because I was supposed to have brunch there Wednesday morning, only to find out that they don't serve breakfast anymore. God must love me though because not only did I get to eat at this resto that I have been wanting to try but I had a night of fun and laughter with someone whom I never thought I would have the chance to eat with.

You see, back in high school, he would just ignore me. Completely ignore me. When he would bother to look at me though, it would be mostly to glare at me and so I'd end up tripping over myself. A decade later and the tables have turned. It seems he now fancies me and I am over my school girl crush.

Life! Men are sometimes just idiots. When you want them, they don't want you. When you don't want them anymore, then they start wanting you. TOINK!

Anyway, here are some shots of the night.

I want to go back to this place. I think it's worth another try.

Oplan Goddess

So its already March and I am now dead serious about losing weight and becoming the goddess that I used to be. I will do it the right way though by still eating but adding more dancing and exercise. I have to. My pride is on the line.

Too many cute and gorgeous dresses that won't look so good in my uber voluptuous body. Besides, someone told me that he will most likely worship me like a goddess if i become sexier. There, motivation.

Hahahaha ... you think I can do it? I'm about 40lbs overweight now in my opinion. What's the realistic goal to lose that 40 unwanted fat? May? June?

HELP!

this is my tummy/waist

monday affirmations # 6

and when you turn those can't into can ... make sure you do it. Do not leave it as being a "can." Make sure that it becomes done. :)

and those dreams into plans ... after you plan, execute them and make them a reality. Nothing is worse than a plan so great that went into waste.

so make those cans and those plans then slowly, one day, turn them into a reality.

muninmuni # 61

This whole week has been an awakening of some sort for me. I realized that I need to sort things out and get my perspective about things back on track. This is with my whole life, not just a segment of it.

I almost let go of my Starbucks group because of some petty things but meeting with them yesterday, I realized that they are a family to me already. They cheer me up and they cheer me on and I am thankful for their existence.

Another awakening is that I have been integrating someone in my life in such a way that I am affected by the things this person say or do when I'm not sure if this person is affected by me too. It's been a constant struggle and I need to let go. It won't be easy but I need to  do it step by step, one step at a tome.

I need to remember me.

As for work, I'm ready to look at greener pastures and see where my potential will be used best. It's not where I am and I am not getting the support that I need.

The whole week, its been about work and realization. I am stronger than this and those who are trying to pull me down, you can all go to hell where you belong. I am much better than you so deal with it.

the SB group meet up

I wasn't planning on attending today's event. In my mind, I was prepping for a day of wearing my pajama and watching DVD's. This is how I planned my day.

It turned out differently but I am glad that it did. I ended up meeting my SB group whom I have already neglected since I was thinking of leaving the group. Yep. I was honestly thinking of leaving the group. Today's event has changed my mind.

Thank you guys for reminding me why I would be dead crazy to ever leave this group.

my LOOT / GOODIES!

And here are the solo shots of the mugs that I have.

I am happy.