Be happy for me, for I am now with God.
This is what was written in his coffin. This is what I should feel; I don't feel this way. I know its selfish of me to want Mark to still be here with us eventhough he was already suffering. It just feels so hollow without him. Someone is missing now in our lil group and he will always be missing now. He won't be there anymore during celebrations and he won't be there anymore when we meet up and go out. It feels so wrong.
It is wrong. He was only 19. But I know that you are at peace now whereever you are. You looked at peace when I saw you lying there. I hope you are. I hope you are happy and at peace wherever you are. Till then, we will see each other again one sweet day. For now, you will be an additional guardian angel who will be watching over us.