I need to learn how to manage my anger. Today, I woke up to the sound of B screaming his lungs off. To say that it was a rude awakening would be a major understatement.
It was a very bad way to wake up, especially as I had only 4 hours of sleep and was still dead tired. I was very mad; so mad that I literally wanted to hurt B. I wanted to make him cry and cry and cry and be sorry that he made so much noise it woke me up.
It was so wrong. =(
After a few minutes, I stood up knowing that I won't be falling asleep again no matter how much I wanted to. I approached B and did make him cry by shouting at him and spanking him a little bit.
It was really wrong. =(
My Mom spoke to me afterwards to reprimand me. She said that I am not handling the situation right. She told me to not do what I did and to not say the things that I said because B is smart and would remember the hurtful things I said.
I am such a bad Mom. =(