Wednesday, March 11, 2009

so much hate

I have so much hate in me now. So much hate ...

I hate my ex for making a fool of me not just once, not just twice, but multiple times.
I hate myself for allowing to be made a fool of.
I hate J for being not flexible.
I hate people who live in the now, who do not make future plans.
I hate people who make excuses when they don't want to do something.
I hate being jealous.
I hate having the ability to love and love again eventhough I have been hurt badly.
I hate being an optimist despite my pessimistic facade.
I hate hoping.
I hate the drama.
I hate feeling burnt out.
I hate being vulnerable.
I hate loving and getting hurt.
I hate crying.
I hate being a charity case.

I hate me right now.

2 comments:

  1. I hope you can find a way to stop hating, most of all yourself but also everything else. Hate is a destructive force that brings you down when you let it into your life and I wish you will have a better life than that.

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  2. Oh no, don't five in to the hate.

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Hi! Let's all try to add more positivity in this world and adhere to the saying, "if you don't have anything nice to say, keep silent."

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