the hunt for the perfect bag

I have the following in my bag:

• Starbucks planner
• notebook
• address book
• 2 small pouches for toiletries and make up
• shades
• eyeglass
• ipod
• 2 cellphones

I need the perfect black bag to accomodate all those and yet look nice. Which one should I go for?

I wish I was a kid again ....

I wish I was a kid again ...

• my biggest problem would be what toy to play with and who to share it with; not worry as to who is sharing my SO's attention with me.
• my biggest concern would be to pee or not to pee in the potty and if I do not pee in the potty, get away with a sorry.
• I would just choose what TV show to watch on TV without being tagged a couch potato.
• I can play with bubbles all day if I want without looking like a retard.
• I can sleep till noon and not be scolded for being lazy.
• I can be chubby and be called cute instead of unhealthy.
• I can cry and be consoled without needing to explain in detail why I am crying.
• I can ask for a hug and everyone would be willing to give me one.

I need a hug. I wish I was a kid again.

Tuyo and Tinapa: Potentially Dangerous to Life and Health

I stumbled over this article about some NY nuns suing a Filipino couple because they cooked dried fish (tuyo) and the NY nuns thought the smell was that of a decomposing body. I've never smelled a decomposing body and I don't know where those nuns have been staying in their leisure time to actually know the smell of a decomposing body, but dried fish does not smell anywhere near a decomposing body.

This is just plain racist. Seriously.

positive and negative

This week started off in a bad way; H's family has started bothering us again and of course being the worrywart that I am, I got affected. Today, I realize that worrying will bring me nowhere. Even if I worry and worry, nothing will come out of it.

So I've decided that I will turn it around and make it a positive thing. This is a challenge for me that I need to overcome. As they say, when you are rising above, people below will try to bring you down. That is what is happening, and I refuse to let that happen.

I life everything to God now. Thy will be done. I am not a religious person but even I know that in cases like these, God is still the one who can really help out. =)

Of course prayers from you guys won't hurt as well. Mwah!

karma bites

To K - Having 2 boyfriends will never do you any good. If you get pregnant, its gonna be hard to explain to the other why the baby does not look anything like him. Lol. Tsk tsk ..

To R - You will never win. Ever.

That's all. =p

when to propose to a woman

A friend of a friend just proposed to his girlfriend and it got me thinking.

Propose to a woman only if ...
You are really sure that come hell or highwater, heaven or hell, sickness and all that, for richer or for poorer ... you want her as your wife, you want her to be the only woman in your bed and out of it, to be there to support you no matter what ... when you are sure that even when you are tempted to be with someone else, you will stay faithful to her.

Propose to a woman only if ...
hers is the face you want to see first thing when you wake up and the last face you will see when you sleep at night ... when you can handle her quirks and even support her in things she does that you think is a waste of time.

Propose to a woman only if ...
you can accept her flaws, be it physical or emotional ... if you are ready to reassure her that even when she has no teeth, is wrinkly, and has white hair, she will be the only one you love ... if you can tolerate even her morning breath and bad hair days ...

Propose to a woman only if ...
she inspires you to be the best that you can be ... she supports you in things that you do ... she understands your quirks and accepts them.

Propose to a woman only if ...
you can live life without her but you choose to have a life with her because if she is not in it, then life is not worth living for.

I'd give my life for you ....

For my son, I will do anything ... even give him my life if needed. I listened to this song below and it fits what I feel for my B. This is from Miss Saigon.

You who i cradled in my arms

You asking as little as you can

Little snip of a little man

I know i'd give my life for you

You didn't ask me to be born

You why should you learn of war or pain?

To make sure you're not hurt again

I swear I'd give my life for you

I've tasted love beyond all fear

And you should know it's love that brought you hear

And in one perfect night when the stars burned like new,

I knew what I must do

I'll give you a million things

I'll never own

I'll give you a world to conquer when you're grown

You will be who you want to be

You, can choose whatever heaven grants

As long as you can have your chance

I swear i'll give my life for you

Sometimes I wake upreaching for him

I feel his shadow brush my head

But there's just moonlight on my bed

Was he a ghost was he a lie?

That made my body laugh and cry?

Then by my side the proof i seehis little one,

gods of the sun,bring him to me!

You will be who you want to be

You, can choose whatever heaven grants

As long as you can have your chance

I swear i'll give my life for you

No one can stop what i must do

I swear i'll give my life for you!

do I not?

I feel you
pulling away
hiding from me
protecting your heart.

It pains me.
Why?
Was it something I did?
Something I said perhaps?

do I not love you enough?
do I not reassure you?
do I not lavish you with love?

I know I do.
A bit much at times.
But I do.

and yet ...
I feel you
pulling away
from me.

and it pains me ...

song of the moment

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone, the river's just a river
Without him the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers
I love him
But every day I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world will go on turning
A world that's full of happiness
That I have never known!

I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own.

munimuni # 31

This week has been a rollercoaster ride for me. I've felt happy, sad, accepted, rejected, wanted, needed, pushed away, and all things rolled into one. I've only started 2009. Whew.

I've made big decisions this week and I plan to keep them even if it kills me. This week was mostly good except for some low points which were pretty darn low. I'm still at that low point as I type this and I hope to get out of it soon.

Highlights:

1) B finally peed on the potty.
2) A project proposal at work got approved in just one day.
3) I was able to design my blog the way I wanted it to look.
4) My lil brothers are here spending part of their weekend.
5) I was able to use my planner and fill it out judiciously.

I hope this coming week will be so much better. =)

PostSecret Sharing # 2

This week is a surprise to me. Normally, I would find one or two at most cards that I can relate to. This week is a first for me. I found several. Please visit PostSecret to see the complete set of cards for this week.

I used to wish that when I loved him, he loved me back. He didn't. He loved me when I no longer loved him. As much as I wanted to get the feeling back, it just wasn't there anymore.

To be rejected in bed is one of the most insulting and painful things, especially if the other person matters a lot to you.

I dream of so many things but I know that most of them, if not all, will never be a reality because I do not have enough courage to make those dreams a reality. Sad, but true.

I love how blogs let you be in touch with the life of someone else. I find it scary how much you can know about someone through their blog.

I read books, a lot. I can relate to this because most of what I read though are nonfiction. I want to pretend that I'm this brainiac or philo person and read about autobiographies, biographies, or Oprah's Book Club choice. I can't. I'm just not into that. There are times I may be interested in one but I can't see myself going to the BestSeller List and choosing a book. I read books that interest me, whether its a romance book or Harry Potter.

don't let me be the last to know ...

There are some things in life that we want to know firsthand. There are things in life that we are okay with knowing along with other people. There are things in life that we don't want to be the last to know.

I was watching this TV show a couple of weeks ago and this singer sang "Don't Let Me Be the Last to Know" by a local artist. She sang it with such gusto that she moved me. I felt bad for her because she just broke up with her 3 year boyfriend and word was going aroung that he was seeing someone else.

I realized that there are some things in life that I do not want to be the last to know. It would be painful but even more so if everyone else knew save for you. That's adding insult to injury. Here's my list.

• being cheated on
• if the guy I am with no longer loves me, I want to know from him the moment he is sure he does not love me anymore
• if the guy wants out, just tell me
• if I have a terminal disease, I'd want to know so I can prepare what needs to be prepared and tell the people I love that I love them and do my "huling habilin" or last will
• if there is gossip going around about me, I want to know immediately
• if there is gossip about my family or someone saying bad things about them
• if I'm about to be let go from my work

For now that is all I could think of.

snippets of love

Boy: at least hindi ako pikon (at least I'm not short-tempered)
Girl: hahahahaha ... ako pikon (I am)
Girl: ewan ko ba, as in pikon ako no (I don't know why but I just am)
Boy : yeah
Girl: hahaha ...
Girl: agree ka naman (you agree!)
Boy : totoo naman (its true)
Boy : hehe
Girl: love mo pa rin naman ako (but you still love me)
Boy : oo naman (of course)

how to handle a woman

"How to handle a woman?

There's a way," said the wise old man,

"A way known by ev'ry woman

Since the whole rigmarole began."

"Do I flatter her?" I begged him answer

"Do I threaten or cajole or plead?

Do I brood or play the gay romancer?

"Said he, smiling: "No indeed.How to handle a woman?

Mark me well, I will tell you, sir

The way to handle a woman

Is to love her...simply love her...

Merely love her...love her...love her."

ooommmm .... ooommmmm .... ooommmm

What are the thing that relaxes me? I was asked this question one time by a friend. I answered this person with the following:

• blogging since writing is very therapeutic for me
• getting a manicure and pedicure
• getting a massage
• scrapbooking
• taking pictures
• listening to music in my iPod
• cotton candy
• chocolates
• flowers

Sigh. If I could just have all for a day.