start and stop

" always use your heart in loving someone
because it is the only accurate instrument
that knows how it is ...
but
if the pain strikes you down and
it hurts you all along
please ...
it is the time for you to use your brain
because heart knows how to start
but only the brain knows when to stop"

Another quote I've been holding on to for more than 3 months now on my phone. The first time I read this, tears fell from my eyes ... and they just kept falling. Now, they have finally stopped.

I'm the kind of person who won't let go until there is still even one drop of hope left that things will work out. I'm that kind of lover. I don't give up unless I really have nothing to hold on to anymore. Maybe this is the reason why I am not friends with any of my exes. I can't. They broke my heart and in return, I broke theirs.

I've let go of them and there is nothing left for me to hold on to; not even friendship. I can't be their friend and they can't be mine. There is too much emotional investment and too many hurts that I endured to sort things out. In some ways, I prefer things to be this way.

I agree that when things are cut, they need to be cut completely. There is no halfway to it. Same thing with my belief in loving. I never love halfway or with reservation. I always give it my all. I do that all the time, every single time. This is so that when I do leave, I can do so without looking back ... without ever turning around ... with no what if's ... with no questions in mind.

So yes, hold on to dear life and dear heart ... but when the pain is too much ... when you wake up in the middle of the night and can't go back to sleep because you are worrying that he is cheating on you ... that you are not good enough ... that he does not care ... and the pain is too much ... LET GO. When you do, never look back .... it's time to use your brain and know that it is time to stop.