what goes around comes around

Today, a ghost from my past called me. This ghost brought back memories of a giddy 17 year old girl who would steal sideway glances at this Adonis of a man. He was handsome with a smile to die for. He had a toned body and his height was just perfect for me to lean on his chest and fit just right (not that I've ever been able to.)

He was THE ONE. He was my biggest crush and just the mere sight of him was enough to send me giggling which I never do. He was the one who had several frames in my 18th bday video coz I asked the videographer to take lots of frames of him. He was THE ONE.

Fast forward to 8 years later ...

Obviously, he was not the one. He was not even close to being the one. He was far off from being the one. He never courted me, he never made a move. I hoped he would but he never did.

So what I felt for him slowly died. I moved on and I found out that he had a kid. Today, he called. After almost 8 years of not talking, I hear from him.

I wonder what will come next?

munimuni # 34

The last weekend was spent with quality. I was able to hang out with my Mom and family to watch Ogie Alcasid (a local popular singer) and Jan Nieto (a rising star.) We had fun though it was just a mall show and we really bonded. Here are some pictures. =)

And here is B eating fries with a lot of ketchup on it ... a lot! Apparently, he is enamored with ketchup and loves licking them off the fries.

We also had breakfast with J at Sinangag Express Sunday morning and went to McDo afterwards to get ice cream for B since he wanted more. The rest of the day was spent chillin' out at the house with family. It was a weekend well spent.

love is ....

B enjoying his Sundae twirl ...

a Girbaud bag given as a gift for no reason at all ...

where the bag was placed ...

These are just some of the things that have made the weekend much better. Loved the bag. Loved the look on B's face even more.

my personality

 
Your Passion Type
You mix passion with pragmatism

Key Traits: open, sensitive, balanced, empathetic, loyal, thoughtful Introspective and self-aware, you have a solid grip on your emotions. Your friends and family consider you "the rock" they can turn to and lean on during tough times. Part of that trust comes from the fact that you always try your best to say what you mean and mean what you say. This is part of your healthy outlook on life, love and work. Hard work is important, but remember to listen to your instinct when it tells you to take a step back and enjoy the quiet moments. There are certain things that you will always be passionate about, whether it's a certain cuisine, a type of music, or a particular sport. On the flipside, there are also things that will never interest you. But that's OK. Your romantic partner appreciates your unwavering sensibility, your balanced temperament, and consistent signs of love and care.

Your Emotional Type
Friends and family are the most important people in your life. You're good about keeping track of birthdays, people appreciate that you care about them.

Your Intellectual Type
You have a naturally curious mind. If there's something new that you want to learn, you're not afraid to ask questions or investigate on your own.

Your Physical Type
Sunny days are not lost on you. If you get the chance, you hit the beach or the mountains to enjoy the fresh air.

ENTJExtraverted iNtuitive Thinking Judging

ENTJs often excel in business. They are assertive, outspoken, confident, outgoing, energetic, charismatic, fair-minded, and unaffected by conflict or criticism. However, other traits may lessen the impact of their strengths. They may appear argumentative, confrontational, insensitive, intimidating, and controlling. They can overwhelm others with their energy, intelligence, and desire to order the world around them. ENTJs tend to cultivate their personal power, and often end up taking charge of a situation that seems (to their mind, at least) to be out of control. Also, ENTJs seek knowledge, striving to learn new things, which helps them become good problem-solvers. They may be viewed by others as aloof and cold-hearted, since ENTJs appear to take a tough approach to emotional or personal issues. In situations requiring feeling and value judgments, ENTJs are well served to seek the advice of a trusted Feeling type.

for better or for worse

When people say for better or for worse, I will stick with you ... do they imagine the worst things that could possibly happen? Or do they just glaze over it and think that love will help you surpass anything?

Obviously this is not the case in this day and age. If it was, then there would be no divorce or annulment in this world because everyone can forgive and adjust to anything. If this was the case, there would be no unhappy marriages. If this was the case, there wouldn't be infidelity.

I was told so many times before, for better or worse. Those all ended on a sad note. When the worse happened, the love between us did not survive. This is why I have had so many failed relationships.

I hope next time, when I am told for better or worse, it really will be for better or worse.

cruising the 7,107 islands of the Philippines

I just stumbled upon this on Meandersome's blog. I think that if you have budget to spare, every Pinoy and tourist visiting our beautiful country should give this a try. It's a cruise that goes around the tourist spots of the Philippines. You even have choices. It's called the 7,107 Island Cruise; aptly named for our 7,107 islands.

After all, wouldn't you want to see such scenic views? The pictures above are as follows: Apo Reef, Coron, Palawan and Ditaytayan.

so much hate

I have so much hate in me now. So much hate ...

I hate my ex for making a fool of me not just once, not just twice, but multiple times.
I hate myself for allowing to be made a fool of.
I hate J for being not flexible.
I hate people who live in the now, who do not make future plans.
I hate people who make excuses when they don't want to do something.
I hate being jealous.
I hate having the ability to love and love again eventhough I have been hurt badly.
I hate being an optimist despite my pessimistic facade.
I hate hoping.
I hate the drama.
I hate feeling burnt out.
I hate being vulnerable.
I hate loving and getting hurt.
I hate crying.
I hate being a charity case.

I hate me right now.

love's best friend

Falling in love is one of the scariest thing on earth. Being in love is one of the most wonderful feeling on earth. Staying in love is one of the most arduous tasks that one can face, especially when the person you love is the reason why you are having a hard time remembering how and why you fell in love.

When this happens, what can save a relationship? What can hold together a love that went wrong? What can keep two people who fell together from falling apart? What can preserve a love meant to grow from drying and dying?

3 things ... there are 3 things that can save a relationshop from totally fizzling.

Security
Trust
Communication

When you have all 3 in your relationship, then it will not die, then it will grow, then it will continure to hold the two of you together ... so I hope that to all lovers, you have these 3 all the time, anytime you need it, and even when you don't.

Teehee. This should have been a post for Vday but I am so in love with life and love and everyone else. =)

munimuni # 33

This weekend, I was able to prove to myself that I can really go to great lengths when it comes to people I love. I can do things I hate and not be hateful doing it. I can withstand things I normally wouldn't put up with to make someone else happy.

This weekend, I am thankful for the following:

- great memories
- friends who love me
- family who is there no matter what
- movie marathons
- TUBIGGGGGG!!! Lol.
- tickets and stuff to scrapbook
- camera phones, camera's ... thank God for digicams
- my healthy, makulit son
- my Mom
- J ... mwahness to you
- aircon at the office ... Manila heat is too hot hot hot!
- Vitaplus ... for keeping me from getting bigger. Lol!

The Final Set ... not the final night

Super fun! Spent it with people I trust, love, and who matter. It's the final set for the Eraserheads but definitely not the final night for us all. =) Peace! Lol.

happy bday lanipot!

It was the birthday of one of my team members. We still had to work but at least we were able to celebrate it in our own lil way. Happy bday Lani! You rock!

* the art thing she is holding on the first photo was made by me. Teehee.

weekend with B

Here he is playing with his bike which he got for his 2nd birthday I believe. He is turning 4 this July. How fast they grow.

He drew his Tita Kianna, himself, and me. Then he wrote the numbers 1 - 10 backwards except for 8 which he has a hard time writing. Lol.

This is his name. He wrote it all by himself.

Here he is blowing bubbles. See the concentration? Hehe ...

And here he is playing with our guinea pigs. I bet the guinea pigs were dead scared. Hahahaha!

no guarantees

Step away

this is what I must do

Step away

this is what I cannot do

push back

i should save my heart from you
push back

i can't seem to get away from you

let go

no guarantee is given to me by you

let go

coz the forever that you say is not true.

spiraling out of control

Has it ever happened to you that you were really excited to talk to someone or be with someone since you really miss that person but soon as you do, you fight? It starts with something trivial and then escalates until you're so mad at each other that you don't even know what you are fighting about and yet you can't seem to stop.

This happened to me several times in the past and just recently. I don't know why in the middle of the fight, I just can't step back, breathe, and relax. The other person is pushed to the limit and starts fighting back. In the end, everyone is hurt and pained and no one is happy.

How do you keep things from spiraling out of control?

saturday swimming

B with Kianna taking part in the parlor games ...

greeting the celebrator Happy Birthday

showing off his Barney hat

posing with Barney

in the pool with Nanny J

I'm still not sure if my son and his aunt were invited to the party or if they crashed it. Seems that the aunt was invited by another guest and not directly by the celebrator. Lol. Anyway, they were welcomed and they seemed to have fun. Most important, they brought a gift. Lol.