congratulations !!!

My twin brothers won Silver in the recent 2nd Manila Dragon Cup which was held at Lakeshore Mexico, Pampanga. Great job twins! Mwah mwah!

collecting clutter

I decided to share some stuff with you since I've been cleaning and organizing things. Above are some of my Snoopy collection as well as some of my Starbucks mug collections. This was lovingly arranged by the best MIL one can possibly have. Cute huh?

I collect a lot of things actually. These are the ones I cannot let go of.

• scrapbooks
• care bear stuff
• notebooks
• scrap stuff (for the scrapbook)
• colored pens
• accessories
• picture frames
• hair accessories
• dvd's
• patterns for cross stitching
• kitchy christmas ornaments
• ref magnets

I have stopped collecting the following:

• stickers
• stuffed toys
• pillows
• shoes
• belts

What do you collect?

Guess what?

I got the job! Whee! I start on March 3. It was supposed to be February 26 but I have this thin about starting things at the start of the month. Do you get it? Anyway, wheee!!!! ÜÜÜ

And here's the B showing off once again.

Feast 180

Appetizer

Have you ever played a practical joke on anyone? If so, what did you do and who was your victim?

Yes I have. I would at times hide something that a peson may have carelessly placed or left somewhere and when they start panicking, that's when I would give it to them. Normally, it would be friends.

Soup

What do your salt and pepper shakers look like?

We don't have one really. Hehe.

Salad

Where is the next place you plan to visit (on vacation or business)?

I really want to go to Spain or Thailand.

Main Course

What kind of lotion or cream do you use to keep your hands from getting too dry?

Any lotion that I can find. I do love Love Spell by Victoria's Secret though.

Dessert

Make up a dessert, tell us its ingredients, and give it a name.

Hmm ... strawberry split. It would consists of strawberryes, condensed milk, mini marshmallows and nuts. Yum-O! Hehe.

the gods are smiling

Not to count the chickens before the eggs have hatched but it seems that you are looking at the blog of the newest Vendor Manager of one of the largest companies not only in the Philippines but in the US as well. Ü I'm gonna be given the job offer so pray for me okay?

Whee!!!! Thank you everyone for the continuous support and love that you have sent my way. Mwah mwah!

PS. This is B's favorite sleeping position. Weird huh? Any of your kids sleep the same way?

and a model is born

So, do you think he'll be a famous model one day?

never lose hope

One thing I learned from this week is that one must never lose hope. I know it seems so easy to say but actually, its quite hard to maintain. The attitude that things will work out, that this too shall pass is not something that can just be kept up at all times. One at times feel rather desolate and letdown.

I'm just happy that hubby is there to pick me up though not immediately. Still ... I'm happy that he's there by my side, making an effort to make things better.

How about you? Was there ever a time in your life you felt hopeless?

off to work?

I have been out of a job for 4 days now. It is seriously killing me. I am so not used to not having to do anything. This feels wrong. I've had a lot of interviews but with managerial position, turn around time can take a month or more and I feel like I just can't wait that long. Call me impatient but I'm really not the type to just sit back and relax.

I know that there are people who love this kind of life; chilling and relaxing and just being a bum but unfortunately, that is just not me. I thrive on pressure and deadline, even stress as sick as that may sound. Sigh. Woe is me.

Pray that I get a job REAL soon okie? I need all the help I can get and I'm pretty sure you don't want to read my ramblings anymore than you have to.

because life can't wait

Have you ever had a life can't wait moment? You know, that moment where you just had to grab the opportunity and seize the day regardless of whatever consequences it may give? I certainly have and I'm very happy to say that I did grabbed the moment. Some of them turned out to be the biggest mistake I've done while some gave me the biggest blessing.

Here are some of my life can't wait moments and what I've gotten from them in return.

1) modelling ... I was never one of the top models nor could I say that I was even remotely close to being one but I did have my fair share of modelling stints and I did get to see my face on a billboard, some ads, and had a few fashion shows. This is one of the first life can't wait moments for me since I used to be a scrawny teenager who wouldn't be caught dead wearing make up, stilletos, and a fashionista top.

Modelling has taught me self confidence and how to look your best even when you feel like rolling over and never getting up. It also taught me that even the most angelic face has something to hide and that not everyone is nice.

2) beauty pageants ... okay okay ... you can laugh now bu tyes I was part of this world too for a very limited time. At that time, I wasn't too happy about being one of those girls who had to be super perfect the whole time but looking back now, I am glad I was part of it because it helped me see things in a different light.

Pageants allowed me to see that though there are some who are merely beautiful and nothing else, it actually does take more than a pretty face to win a contest. It also involves a lot of discipline which I sadly don't have just to maintain appearances.

3) call center industry ... when I started in this industry, everyone kept saying that it was a suicide career. I had nowhere to go. I didn't listen to them and I'm glad that I didn't. It may not be the most ideal career one can possibly have but it brings home the bacon and I can say that I am darn good with it.

4) having a baby ... I was not ready to have one. I think I will never be ready to have one but along came the tornado and somewhere between changing poopy diapers and running around trying to catch him to get whatever he's stuck in his mouth, I've realized that he is the reason why I live; why I was born into this world.

5) getting out of my comfort zone ... right now I don't have work and I will be looking for a new one. I'm already a supervisor but I'm thinking of trying out for the entry level position again. Why oh why? It's not because I can't get a supervisory post ... its really more of feeling burnt out. I want to try working my way to the top in a new company. I want to challenge myself and see if I can do it. It's crazy but the idea is just there in my head. Think I should go for it?

What are your life can't wait moments?

up, down, back,front

This week has been truly challenging for me. It gave me time to step back and think things over.

Should I stay in the company I'm working in? Should I just let go? Do I want them to keep me? Do I want them to let me go? Is it really worth fighting for or is everything that has happened telling me to just let it go?

At times, it all seems so confusing and I feel the need to escape though I know that I cannot. And with all these comes the realization that at times like these, I really need to leave everything to God's will.

What has happened in your life recently?

Twilight Series

Has anyone read this series? I love it! I love it love it love it! Much to my dismay, it seems to me like I am the only one in my group to have read this. Others I've asked didn't like it and most have not heard of it. This makes me wonder since its always sold out in the bookstores here in Manila. Weird no?

Here's a preview for those who might be interested. Lemme know if I was able to convince you to read it okay? It's really worth your while. They've even finalized a movie deal and the guy who played Cedric Diggory will be Edward in this film. *faints with delight*

Start with Twilight, next is New Moon, then Eclipse. The author is Stephanie Meyer, a SAHM.

PS.

I just saw this blog from another blog and they have a contest. Go check it out.

Happy Chinese New Year!

It's truly another year for us now. Happy new year. I hope that everyone will be blessed with strength to surpass the trials that will come our way and will have space in their homes for new blessings and wonderful memories.

Welcome the rat!

To know more about your Chinese Horoscope, click here.

something to make you smile

Here's a picture of the Tornado when he was just 3 days old. Funky eh? Lol!

....

"Today, I know the deepest level that I am. I am an incredible Woman!

"I am bratty, sensitive, touchy, pouty, moody, fearless, reckless, careless, rageful, feisty, controlling, demanding, blunt, rough, outrageous, bitchy, daring, obsessive, tactless, vain, extravagant, flirty, a tease, extremely lustful, ridiculous, a mistress, and a wondrous woman to myself most of the time.

"But I am also loving, caring, affectionate, thoughtful, hardworking, organized, neat, hilarious, playful, fabulous, genuine, unforgettable, fascinating, captivating, fashionable, alluring, stunning, a friend, a listener, a model, a goddess, a celebrity, a singer, an actress, an aunt, a sister, a mother, a girlfriend, a role-playing wife, a baby.

"The greatest learning of my life is that it is fine by me to be despised for who I truly am than to be adored for who I really am not.

"I have learned to love myself and love others and need to be loved in return.

"Love reigns!

"Love is the very reason I am living my life to the fullest, for loving overcomes the most fearful, unexplainable and unexpected."

*** this is borrowed from Gretchen Baretto ... the most misunderstood star ... now I know why I like you ... its because your words are my words ...

beginnings ...

an old chapter ends but a new one will begin ... hopefully real soon ... we mustn't look back for right in front of us will be a brighter picture Ü

This is what's in my YM status now for this is what I feel about my life ... work life specifically. For over a year I have worked so hard in building my credibility and character and in one fell swoop, things changed. It made me think back and do some soul searching ... and it made me realize. They are not my life. They are not even important. Yes, work is a means to an end but its not everything. I have bent over backwards trying to please people and changing their opinion of me when in fact, its a losing battle right from the start.

People will never think of me in another way because they don't want to see me as someone better. People will never give me a chance because to do so would mean that they were wrong. People will never admit that I have changed because that would mean I've beaten them by becoming someone better. No matter how good I become, no matter how much I've improved, no matter what I do, did not do, changed, did not change, I will always be what they perceived me to be.

Why even bother then? I bother for myself, for my family, and for my REAL friends. For anyone else, let them think whatever they want to think. Let them see me as for what they want me to be. I am me, I know who I am, and I am proud of what I have become; mistakes and all.