K, you will always be MY SISTER

The youngest in our brood finally turned 18 which means she is no longer a child. She is now of legal age, able to buy and drink alcohol, can go to jail, and make life changing decisions. In short, she can now make adult decisions eventhough she is barely just that, an adult.

She's gorgeous right? I mean, all you need to do is take one look at K and you know she's pretty as pretty can be. This means that she gets to be surrounded by boys and sadly (yes, I am sad about this because I wanted to spare her from heartache for as long as I could) she has fallen for someone.

K is not only my little sister. She's like the daughter that I never had or even knew that I wanted. Granted that there has been moments I've wanted to strangle her but she's my sister. MY SISTER. She's also my fiercest protector, ready to drop a flower pot on some guys' car because he made me cry.

Coz she is MY SISTER, it also means that I am overprotective of her but recent events have reminded me that try as I might, I cannot protect her at all times. Some of the pain she will feel, she even welcomes it. This is what happens when we fall in love. We give someone the power to hurt us and this is what she has done.

In the photo above, you can see that the two of us are laughing. We've had a lot of moments like this but lately, it's not as many as it used to. My sister has started experiencing the upside of being in love but along with it she has also started experiencing the downside of being in love.

She is coming to realize that boys can be dickheads coz they will promise you the moon and the stars then when you fall in love, they turn around and show you that you don't matter when they get mad. She is coming to realize that being in love is not all about the sweet moments. What matters more is how you are treated when he has no reason to be nice to you. She is realizing that when you fall in love, you don't get ready to fall in love. You get ready for the pain that will come because to fall in love is to give someone the power to trample your heart while you pray immensely that they won't.

My sister is too pretty and smart to be taken for granted. Any guy would be lucky to have her in his life. Any guy would be lucky to be loved by her. Sadly, not all guys are smart and there will always be the occasional jackass.

I know nothing of her current lovelife. What I do know is that I no longer see the bubbly, alive, and hungry for life sister that I used to have. I miss her. I miss that bubbly girl who would laugh out loud and her laugh is so contagious that you can't help but laugh WITH her. I miss that little girl who believed that we want nothing but the best for her.

Right now, I feel like she's there but not really there. I've been through this so I know, I hope, that she will get through this. In the meantime, I can only wait for her to approach and ask for advise. Till then, I will just be here, patiently waiting.

K, you are now an adult but I hope you remember that you are not yet truly an adult. Learn from our mistakes. There is no need to make your own for now. For now, you probably think its you and him against the world but eventually, you will remember that we will always be at your back, pushing you forward, cheering you on, wanting nothing but life's best for you for the simple reason that K, you will always be MY SISTER.